Newlife,
It's funny that how you described those hard liquor drinks (like a love affair with someone sexy...a scene from Joe Dirt comes to mind), but I agree with you about having just one. I was literally drooling when I was af and reading about Deena's way with drinking and I was thinking I am Pavlov's dog...what the frack! I am so afraid to a have mixed drink because my habit would be 3 martinis extra, extra dry and a bottle of wine, or 3 margaritas and an extra shot of tequila with each one and a bottle of wine. I have never had a cosmo, and now I am wondering what I missed. I know I would not be able to drink them slow, and who only has one (unless they are 90 pounds dripping wet)?
I do not think you will have to give them up; however, I read somewhere in this forum that the beer drinkers (normal beer 6%) respond the fastest, then the wine drinkers and then the hard liquor people take the longest. I am not sure if that has any truth in it, but after I read that I thought I would try to stay away from the hard stuff (for I know I cannot be trusted).
I still struggle, and even last night I finished a bottle of wine that I bought last week it had 8 oz of wine in it. I should have poured my 5 oz and dumped the rest, or saved it for later (I want start trying to have just one) but I thought just finish it. My mind is just so weak! I am so afraid that this is going to be like a diet. I start out good and do really well for a while and then WHAM I cannot stop eating junk all day! My heart is racing just thinking about it, and I am shaking...god Pavlov's dog is coming out again!
This is scary stuff, but we all will get to where we want to be. I don't care about the time frame, and I try not to focus on that (it helps that I am a little daft remembering dates and times). I am trying to focus on the moment. I can have 8 oz. of wine and go to bed wanting more...before I would have been looking for another bottle! I just hate the fact I still want more.
Jaba
P.S. Newlife where do you order your nal. from, how much and how long does it take to arrive? My script will run out in Oct. and she told me that this is the last time she will fill it. I really do not want to have it on my record as "addict" for life insurance reasons (and my sister can have access to my record), so I told her I was using it for another reason (weight loss).
Have a great day
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