KrazyKris wrote:
Hey Happy - You're doing great!
I'm glad your results show it can take quite a while to see changes, because it's important for the new members to understand that. The number of units isn't the only measure of progress, so it's misleading to look at that alone. Under the surface, your brain is slowly changing - even though you can't feel it. I like the analogy of knowing that young kids are physically growing all the time, even when you can't see it - you just KNOW it's happening without question. Then, after several months, you measure the height, and its' like - "Wow, you grew X inches!" Nobody really SAW it happen, but the results show otherwise. We don't doubt that kids grow slowly, so why should we doubt that we will? Keep up the great attitude - you inspire all of us to think positively while we plug away. Congratualtions!

What you say here is so true, Kris. I love the analogy. While my drinking is moderately down, and not consistently so, the way I view myself, alcohol - the world, really - is undergoing a dramatic change. I'm much more clear-headed, whether drinking or not. I'm more in control of myself when I drink, and usually drink slower. I don't say/do the stupid things I used to do, and really wonder if Nal is extinguishing that behavior, along with the addiction. All of these things are allowing me to like myself a lot more! Because my drinking levels are lower, I don't wake up hung-over and shaky any more. . .nor do I black out b/4 going to bed. There have been a few times when I had a glass of wine early in the day, for lunch, and then didn't have another until just before dinner time. I don't feel the compulsion to go out to the local bar every night of the week, but am content to stay home much of the time. If I'm low on wine. . .so what? No big deal, as I know I can go a night w/o drinking two whole bottles. Think of the money being saved!
In other words, alcoholic
behavior is definitely becoming a thing of the past, even though alcoholic
drinking is not yet extinguished. Odd, but definitely true.