Hey Zip --

I agree with HF. There seems to be a slow-going zone right around where you are. Don't fret too much. You are doing so much to make positive changes in your life.

And while the support structures may be less than you need I'm sure you'll build a more complete community going forward. That just seems like who you are. And having Mr. Man on your side is so solid.

Here comes a new week. You deserve the best of it!

Thanks HF and Tiller, I need this support right now especially today. I really over did it yesterday, feeling awful about myself, and for no real good reason. Oh yeah, got bad news on my taxes I owe two months worth of work! SayLaVe` I guess that's how you spell it. Glad I have some in reserve to be able to pay for it.

My perscription has come to an end and I need a refill. My doc won't call it in unless I go in for a visit, it's really no big deal, I hate having to defend myself. Especially when I have been feeling so beat up.

Picking up and moving forward, I am going to make the best of today and the rest of the week. You're right Tiller Mr. Man is a solid thing I am madly in love and sooooo grateful to have someone in my life. I know this is temporary what I'm going through, man it sucks right now.

Thanks for listening!

Zip

Hi Zip,

Hang in there, and we'll help get you through this "blah" stage that a lot of us* seem to be stuck on right now. Square away your taxes, get your Nal refill and keep working on TSM.

*Those of us that started around August/September all seem to be in a similar place right now. It's kinda remarkable to see the parallel experiences.


You've got the right attitude, and I'm sure you're getting some solid support from your fiance. You said it yourself - this stage is temporary, and you're gonna get past it!

Best,
H

Hey Zippy

C'est la vie is right! (I speak French, but I expect EL does even better, being half French.) Sorry to hear about you feeling crap. But you have a long way to go. Hopefully when you are at 16 months like me, you will be on the cured list??!! The support of your man is sooo important. I have lost that with mine lately after all my weekend bag lady episodes. If I can do a few weeks AF he will hopefully be happy for me to give this a go again.

Hang in there
Cheers
Sticky

Having trouble posting this morning. I'll be back.

Hehe I'm not here to correct anyone's French Although I will clarify that technically, I'm 100% French lol - I am a French citizen, just happen to have lived in the US for a long time because my dad's job brought us here. Hence, the bilingualism !
Zippy, don't get too down. I feel like an old timer around here because I feel like I've been through SEVERAL plateaus already, and after each one there is either a drop=off in units or a new discovery that I make that helps me control my drinking better. And then usually my lizard brain fighitng it for a few weeks...
Hang in there!!

Hanging in there for sure!!! I'm going to keep this short to see what happens. This week every time I try to post it times out and I lose my post. FRUSTRATING! Had some good stuff and I want to keep in touch.

Hanging in there for sure!!! I'm going to keep this short to see what happens. This week every time I try to post it times out and I lose my post. FRUSTRATING! Had some good stuff and I want to keep in touch.

Notes from the week of April 2 – 5, 2012.

This has been my progress over the course of working TSM. I am not sure if I want to disclose this to my doctor on Friday. Have to think about it… What I do want to do is document what has happened to me in the process. Be completely honest and to be sincere with my feelings, especially with what I want.

Reprogramming my thinking was the first step, the second was to love myself again just the way I am. My life today is so different from when alcohol was a problem in my life. I actually have a peaceful, loving, supportive atmosphere where to come home to. I love my job and the outlook for a much happier life, I actually have someone in my life that loves me for just being me. I lost this when my mother died then my father. I could never be just myself in my marriege of 25 years to a man that was very confrontational, demanding, and unforgiving. It was like every minute was a fight, I never felt comfort when I got home always high tension. It's the opposite today, light night and day!!!

What has changed in me and this is why my behavior is different.
No hiding
No binging
Not lying about consumption
Not lying about what where and when, not lying period
Not drinking at inappropriate times
Not chasing the bottle in the morning,
Not chasing at all, can take it or leave it.
Pouring drinks out.
Don’t need a drink in the morning to “straighten me out”
Learning how to love my self just as I am

Goal:
1 – 2 times a week
Less than ten units per week.
A return to rational control, social non-alcoholic drinking

Haven’t hit my goal yet
Going to have to take every time I want to or think I’m going to
Awful hangovers, I hate feeling this way.

I want to have at home, sometimes I will go overboard never to the point I can’t stop. I’ll have two or three then all I want is water after that.

It was a fight yesterday convincing my councilor that what I'm doing is a good thing for me. He's still convinced that I can't drink period. After all was said and done he agreed with refilling my prescription for Nal. Today I called the pharmacy, you'll never guess what? He didn't call it in. Go figure. I'm out afraid I'll want to drink today, I called my general doctor hoping they can call in at least a week’s worth. It's Saturday on a holiday weekend. Oh Bother, like Winnie the Poo say's. Like Tommy said it's not the end of the world...

Zippy is Smiling, picking up and with a great feeling today either way. Life is great and it's a beautiful spring day!!!

Great post, Zip. Glad there is so much positive stuff going for you. You have struggled for it and EARNED it!