Hey Zippy

CONGRATULATIONS! I can thoroughly recommend backyard weddings - ours was in our garden 14 years ago. We only had 20 people to the ceremony (only have a small garden) then went out on a boat with 60 people afterwards. Germany for your honeymoon - that will be cool. I went to the Beerfest once and had a ball. Also enjoyed the scnapps.

It sounds like St Patrick's Day was not great for quite a few of us! Hope you are feeling better now.

Nal on
Sticky

Thanks Sticky!

Recovering slowly, and trying to be kind to myself. As Chrissie said fighting to hard is too stressful which in turn causes bingeing that's not good. I like her idea of just letting it happen naturally, have faith, it is much better than the addictive drinking of days ago.

Happy Spring!!!

Zippy Smiles

Yay!Congrats on the engagement and hopefully what will be a beautiful backyard wedding It sounds like maybe the excitement got the best of you drinking-wise? But back on the horse!

You hit the nail on the head EL!!! Fighting it today, good thing I'm in good spirits and being kind to myself. Keeping hope in check because I know there will be a day when it's not a problem.

Zip

Hey Zip,

CONGRATULATIONS!!! You are getting married. That is the best news I've heard in quite a while. You love your back yard? You must love gardening too as you've mentioned you like getting dirty! Me too, can't wait for spring. Anyway, I know you will have great fun working on your yard all season in preparation for your wedding.

Congrats again and NAL ON....

Thanks Nalwayout!

I have been struggling a bit, again, trying not to be too hard on myself, again! It sounds like the same old story over and over again, kinda like Bill Murray in Ground Hog Day... Waiting patientally for something to turn around, thinking about it I believe a little more effort on my part will help. Just like Chrissie was saying by "adding an element of Motivation into my TSM program". I know that God will help those who help themselves, I use to say this all the time at the tables. It's time I start putting some effort into this also and listen to my words of advise.

Seeing the spike in my drinking has me concerned and a bit scared, I'm not going to give up, there is still hope. Really I am feeling good today and going to keep pushing forward. I am also encouraged by your numbers, what a drastic change only being 10 weeks into this. Can you tell me more about your process Nal?

Smiles, Zippy

Hey Zip,

That's 10 months not 10 weeks. It was a long difficult ride but so worth it! If you read what I wrote about my cure on the cured list, it gives my side of the story. lol

So never give up! Your cure could be right around the corner.

Happy spring to you.

Hi Zip

Try not to worry about the units. Keep optimistic and hang in there!

Cheers
Sticky

Thanks Sticky for the encouragement!

I am concerned today about soooo much, trying to remember what I use to do to relax. When I think about my time in AA recovery I didn't have the responsibility I have today, since I started TSM I've lost all my supports except my husband to be. That's nice! I feel he is a love that's going to last a very long time, one that's going to be there through thick and thin. I am missing a close girlfriend that I can talk to, you can only discuss so much on the forum. When I get home at night I'm so exhausted from the pressrues at work, what's going on at home, finances, yada yada yada. The drinks are helping me to relax, today I feel it is a part of me that I do like, this is what makes me who I am. It does feel so good to have this level of self acceptance.

As I'm looking at week 21 I have a little more hope last weeks numbers where in control. Taking it easy on myself is key and really taking it one moment at a time. Today is going to be difficult, I have to work on my taxes, so... No drinks until I'm finished! Thank God I have tomorrow off.

Zip Smiles

Hey, Zippy!

For what it's worth, there seems to be a period of time around week 20-30 where things are out of sorts for a lot of people. It's in many threads. I felt like it would never end and there was just a grind of 40+ units a week. I actually became depressed. My unit intake dropped after that period and progress has become more rapid. I think it's some kind of hill we have to power over.

I would like to suggest something, maybe you should look at your hobbies and pick one you would like to pursue. If you don't have a social hobby, maybe find one. A common thread for those of us over 30 is we have to find new friends and pass times. I've experienced this and have begun trying to go to the gym and other pass times. I have also noticed this in several other poster's threads. It's more of a "now what do I do?" moment.

Take care!