Plantpro you have really stabilized at a safe level, you should be proud of that.

I hadn't noticed before that you didn't have any AF days until your 5th month in when you're numbers started slipping below the 30 mark.

Hey Plantpro, Thank You and you are so right, it's simple to just follow the Golden Rule and good things happen, which I have read over and over again on this Forum.
I can hardly wait until the AF days come to me much easier as I know how good I feel after having a few. I don't socialize much so drinking at home is my entertainment and I know it is bad to drink alone but until TSM kicks in guess I will go with the flow.
You sound happy and pretty much in control of your life now and all due to TSM, good for you....

Week 36, 17 units, 4 af. Went out 3 nights and drank 6, 6 and 5 beers while dancing and socializing. No hangovers, no out of control behavior. Just a good time where the emphasis was more on the music and people, not the alcohol. I'm learning post TSM, even at 62, what's life really about. I'm more present and mindful of the big picture now. Something that alcohol had taken from me. It's no longer the sex, drugs, booze, rock and roll lifestyle that I used to live. Before everything had to be bigger then life and the larger it got, the more I wasn't allowed to participate. It wasn't maintainable and now I realize it was all make believe in a sense. The excitement within myself was just an illusion and came with a big price to pay. It was a great story to tell myself and friends. At least that's what I thought before it started to mature and have destructive consequences. I've been lucky and I KNOW IT that TSM has saved me and replaced it by a much better life. One where I'm able to have feeling of peace and true acceptance of my current state of affairs. I have something now that can be maintained and built upon. There's more of a flow with reality and people. So I want to remind YOU, TSM did it for me and I hope it will do it for you. In truth I have no idea how it worked, I just know it did. All you have to do is follow the Golden rule and give it time. Lets face it, being an alcoholic is hard work. Taking a pill and doing what you've always done is easy. So stay the course, get over the silly idea that you need instant results. Get a pace going that you can maintain and DO IT. Start adding beneficial things to your life if you haven't yet. Even if they're in baby steps they will have a seedbed to grow and will. In signing out and reflecting back upon the week. Some would say I drank too much, maybe so. But I have my pace going and I can maintain it. 4 af days that came effortlessly and were enjoyable is what I consider SWEET. Hard to explain why they're so enjoyable, but they are. I've added certain things to my life in lieu of alcohol. I've been taking dancing lessons for a month. I got two days in where I re-started my meditation practices and started hitting the gym. I believe the af days are helping my body re-adjust and not be so inflamed. I've noticed my belly is much smaller and my over all complexion is better. I'm 12 lbs down with 30 to go to be at my high school weight. I have a lot of momentum going and without alcohol in my way.... I should be able to reach my new goals easily. Not bad, not bad at all. STAY THE COURSE, you can do it. Peace. Start TSM 4/10/14, pre TSM probably between 60 and 70, going as high as 85 units per week for months straight .................................... Wks:
1-52.5.......... 11-42.75.............21-21.75, 2 af................31-17, 4 af
2-52.5.......... 12-36.75.............22-23, 1 af....................32-15, 4 af
3-53.5.......... 13-27.................23-25..........................33-18, 4 af
4-51............ 14-28.75..............24-19.5, 1 af.................34-12, 5 af
5-50.5..........15-27.5................25-9...........................35-19, 4 af
6-56.5..........16-27.5................26-14.75......................36-17, 4af
7-51.............17-30..................27-19.5, 2 af
8-46.............18-34.5...............28-17, 3 af
9-46.............19-28.5...............29-17.5, 3 af
10-42...........20-14.5, 3 af.........30-17, 4 af

Good, all good !

Glad you are doing so well...

That's a good way of looking at it, couldn't agree more.

Week 37, 16 units, 4 af. Merry X-mas to everyone. I went out 3 nights and did a 5, 5 and 6. I had a good time and was able to drink like a normal person. It's something I'm getting real good at. I've been noticing something that I want to mention. It's the effects of alcohol on people I know well and the change they go through. I can see it in their eyes. There's a shift in the way they think and their corresponding actions are never for the better. It's amazes me I can see it from the other side now. I remember that was me a short 37 weeks ago. I too believed in that alcoholic illusion that caused a personality shift within me. I believed it felt good, relaxed me and made me more whole and social. Just like they do now or maybe you do now. I went to a X-mas party and someone made a comment and inferred that I wasn't able to fully participate without drinking. I thought to myself how it is totally the opposite. That now with a sober mind. I'm truly able to have fun and participate in a way unlike before. I didn't mention it to him but I know I'm right and alcohol when overdone is nobodies friend. TSM has changed my life and it's all for the better. If you are reading this, it will do the same for you, just give it time. I just followed the Golden rule and drank like the alcoholic I was. TSM , time and patience did the rest. I had another 4 af days at home. There's no way I could drink at home these days. It's the furthest thing from my mind on what I want to do. It was just the natural response of the nal. Not something I planed or constructed. So in looking back for the week, I'm in a steady mode that I'm happy with. I hit the gym 4 times, meditated approximately the same amount of times. Lost another pound or so and had a sober date that went well. I'm very content and relaxed which is good. It is my opinion that the nal continues to heal my brain and I'm able to reap it's benefits. I look much better and my confidence is growing. At this pace it will be interesting to see how next year goes. Stay the course, everybody can do it. Peace........Start TSM 4/10/14, pre TSM probably between 60 and 70, going as high as 85 units per week for months straight .................................... Wks:
1-52.5.......... 11-42.75.............21-21.75, 2 af................31-17, 4 af
2-52.5.......... 12-36.75.............22-23, 1 af....................32-15, 4 af
3-53.5.......... 13-27.................23-25..........................33-18, 4 af
4-51............ 14-28.75..............24-19.5, 1 af.................34-12, 5 af
5-50.5..........15-27.5................25-9...........................35-19, 4 af
6-56.5..........16-27.5................26-14.75......................36-17, 4af
7-51.............17-30..................27-19.5, 2 af.................37-16, 4 af
8-46.............18-34.5...............28-17, 3 af
9-46.............19-28.5...............29-17.5, 3 af
10-42...........20-14.5, 3 af.........30-17, 4 af

Plantrpr0 you give me such inspiration to just let go and let the Nal and TSM work as you say it is a science and you just can't mess with that. I really like that you say you cannot drink at home as that is what I am doing now and hope that that will kick in for me too. I have just come from my family Christmas and was working like crazy getting my sister's place organized as she is layed up with a bad back, preparing the dinner, and most of the clean up. I was drinking while doing these things but it took me like 1 1/2 hours to drink a small glass of wine so now I am home and am having some Vodka Tonics. I also did not want to drink very much at all with driving but that is what I do is come home and then I give myself permission to drink when I get home?

Peace to you too plantpro, and Merry Christmas to all. Glad you're doing so well, 2015 is a brave new year for all of us!

this, for me, is the message (that I want to hear)

have a wonderful new year plantpr0, I truly hope to be joining you n the post-TSM life soon