Hi Maggie. I have not had any experience with numbness nor have heard of it. I would give it a couple of days but if it doesn't go away you probably will have to have it looked at.

I know what you mean about just opening the next one, and UK Blondes question is a good one - is it drive or habit. I am not sure I know the answer to that myself. For me it still feels like some sort of compulsion. Plus I think that in the evenings, especially on weekends, I am so used to the feeling of having lots of alcohol that the experience of being sober sort of unnerves me. I am not used to it; it has been so many years.

Newlife

Is it like a friend?

UKB - yes, i think that sort of sums it up.

That's a good question UKBlonde, and a question I find myself asking myself a lot these days: drive or habit?

Good job Maggie for still being quite a bit below your pre-tsm.

Thanks UKB, Omshiva and newlife for the responses - I suppose if I am totally honest - and I have to be here 'cos if I am not here then where on earth CAN I be about this ? Anyway if I am totally honest it is habit .... I think - I do not think it is craving as such - yesterday I felt quite unwell after four - really quite sick yet opened another - didn't drink it but had actually opened it! Ended up watching some drivel on the TV to pass the time until I could decently go to bed. Had hoped to be AF today but that is not happening. I am questioning why I am drinking, a LOT right now !!

As for the numbness - I am not doing anything about it - my doctor is hopeless. it will either go away or stay the same or get worse - IF it gets worse I will follow up, either of the former and I will not do anything.

Thanks everyone,

Hugs, Maggie x

Sounds like you're ready for some AF time!

Yes I think you might be right - I was tempted to tell you to wash your mouth out - LOL - but the thought of going AF and actually doing it are very hard - unless I get a spell like the one I got the other week where the mere thought of a drink made me nauseas - wish that would come back!!! SIGH ......I am feeling that this is not so easy at all !!!

Hugs, Maggie x

Hang in there Maggie. Over the weekend I had some time so I went over some old threads, like Heavy Fuel as suggested by Cheeto. It helped a lot. That is just one example of where it took way longer than the book says, but he had success in the end. I just know that you will too. Did some more reading in the book, and it is the drinking that actually leads to extinction, so if we are drinking, that is what we MUST do for this method to work. Hugs to you, Newlife

Maggie I hope the numbness is resolving itself. In terms of consumption as I mentioned in another post it does happen where at some point there is a plateau but then after that the numbers start to go down again. I noticed I kind have plateaued in the "30" range but seeing other people here 6 months out or more that plateau does drop. Keep the faith! Hugs!!!

Newlife and AG - thank you so much - you both have no idea how much it helps me to have your moral support in this ! Life is just way too hard at times - and AL used to help that but doesn't any more which doesn't help the hard times - if you follow ! So I am having to deal with the hard times right now without AL - well, with AL but it isn't giving the same feelings as it was. Which is good. I know that things will settle down for me - both Cheeto and I are doing the moving thing - buying and selling our homes is SO stressful! I actually started taking Rhodiola this morning - I have to do something ! Right now I really want another drink - but the Nal does not want me to have one. SIGH. I think I shall pour it - probably will not drink it but at least it will be there if I do want it.

Hugs to all, Maggie x