Hi everyone
I wrote a long post yesterday but it didn't work. Probably because we have a cable fault and internet access has been down most of the week. Very frustrating, especially when we are running a business from home.
Ketch - I went to Thailand for my op because it cost between a third and half what it would here. I expect I will be very happy with it given another week - at this stage it's still a bit uncomfortable and my eyes aren't great.
The end of the holiday was great. Lots of yummy food, especially seafood. A bit of shopping. Lazing by the pool & at Karon beach. Swimming with face above water. Hubby and I went to the red light district one night (Bangla Rd), had a few drinks and checked out an infamous Ping Pong show. Lots of fun but a bit sad too. Went on a boat trip to James Bond Island and 3 other islands where we kayaked in lagoons and swam. Beautiful. The highlight for me was elephant trekking, as I'd never done that before. We went to the north of Phuket. On the return trek I rode on the elephant's neck - that was so cool. Had my facial support & scarf on as my surgeon suggested, so got some funny looks! Then we kayaked down a river with spectacular scenery in the pouring rain! Had a day room in KL on the way home and lazed by the pool. We won a weeks' free accommodation in Phuket after listening to a presentation. I'm already planning my next trip! If I'm feeling rich I might have something else done. Cosmetic surgery, like alcohol, is quite addictive. I could do with a boob job (& hubby would like me to have one) but perhaps more than that I'd like PKR eyesight surgery, which restores your eyes to how they were (if they were good) before late 40's hit. I am forever looking for my reading glasses, even tho' I have about 5 pairs scattered around the house!
After my 6 days of not drinking I got stuck into the cocktails and holiday mode so units were 33 for week before last. Since I've been home I haven't felt 100% - maybe drank some dodgy water on the last day away. Drank heaps on the flight home to try & sleep (which doesn't work) then didn't drink for 4 days. Last night was very disenheartening though. I had a stressful day in the office & had a few gins. I got totally depressed (bawling my eyes out) and argued with hubby. Spent half of today in bed feeling crap, instead of going to my "foot in the door" AA meeting. All the alcohol I've been drinking and also the nal I think (since it makes things less pleasurable) is negating the effects of the antidepressants I have to take and I am getting depressed. I am starting to think that TSM won't work for me. I won't give up yet, as like WJ I'd like to be able to drink socially and within healthy guidelines (no more than 14 std NZ units per week.) I'm not in a good space though. Will try not to drink for a few days.
Sorry to end on a discouraging note for those of you behind me, but I am being honest.
Take care all of you
Sticky
My progress so far (NZ units):
Week 1: 1,8,AF,3,AF,AF,3.5 total 15.5,3AF Week 2: AF,8,8,AF,AF,4,8 total 28, 3AF
Week 3: 4,8,AF,8,AF,5,AF total 25, 3AF Week 4: 16,AF,8,7,AF,10,AF total 41, 3AF
Week 5: 7,12,8,AF,8,AF,8 total 43, 3AF Week 6: AF,5,12,AF,AF,8,AF total 25, 4AF
Week 7: AF,14,AF,6,AF,5,AF total 25, 4AF Week 8: 8, AF, 12, 12, AF, 1.5, 1.5 total 35, 2AF
Week 9: 12, AF, 10, 2,AF, 10, AF total 32, 3AF Week 10: 9, AF, 10, AF,1.5, 6.5, AF total 27, 3AF
Week 11: 12, AF, 14, 3.5, 1, AF, 7.5 total 38, 2AF Week 12: AF, 8 AF, 9, 2, AF, AF total 19, 4AF
Week 13: 8.5, AF, 9, AF, 12, AF, 14 total 43.5, 3AF Week 14: 7.5, AF, 8, AF, AF, 9, 9 total 33.5, 3AF
Week 15: AF, 9, AF, 9, AF, 9, 10 total 37, 3AF Week 16: total 34, 2AF
Week 17: total 32, 3AF Week 18: total 34, 4AF
Week 19: total 33, 3AF Week 20: 32, 3AF
Week 21: total 38, 3AF Week 22: 29.5, 4AF
Week 23: 34.5, 3AF Week 24: 36, 4AF
Week 25: 30.5, 3AF Week 26: 29, 3AF
Week 27: 22, 4AF Week 28: 33, 2AF
Week 29: 24, 4AF