Week 31, 17 units, 4 af. I've completed 7 months now and the nal continues to work its magic. To those that may think recovery is black and white, or linear like straight march forward. My recovery suggests something different. It' obvious from being on the path that certain things are happening to me. In looking back, I'm realizing that there is a great beauty and gentleness in this path we've chosen. We're allowed to be ourselves and must be ourselves in order for it to work. We have to bring our addiction with us in order to capitalize on the extinction process. That's why I believe forcing af days are counter productive. The nal needs our addiction to work to its fullest. I was the alcoholic who's main goal in the afternoons was drinking, partying till I passed out. I drank in the wrong manner for 40 years. I was helpless to control my drinking no matter how much I tried. All the willpower I could muster, the books I read, even the books on tapes that I used were worthless. When I started TSM, a miracle started to happen. Slowly everything changed and I was given my life back. At the same time it was dismantling my craving, it also had a positive effect of promoting or allowing some good attributes to manifest in me. By some magic, it's making me or helping me become a better person. I believe this is crucial part and a great gift of the nal. Without the slow rebuilding part that coincides with the extinction process, recovery could be much harder. We're lucky that this slow acclimation process can take you from being an alcoholic to a highly fully functional individual with minimal effort. Look what's happened to me recently. Two weeks in a row I've experienced 4 af days? The last two Sundays I haven't partied because I prefer to be sharp for Monday? This wasn't a plan, there was no forcing control over it. My habits associated with my drinking are being dismantled automatically in favor of more beneficial activities. It's what I want to do and feel like doing now. My house is much more organized. I went out and spent a small fortune on clothes, I'm working on my appearance, eating well and sleeping well. I even signed up and attended a dance class. I'm happier then I've been in years and years. All a gift from the nal and following the Golden rule. In signing out for this week.... a special shout out to all you new participants on how well you are all doing. The only way I see you failing is by you giving up or by non compliance with the Golden rule. Get over the notion that you have to be cured by a certain amount of time. I've given it 7 months and my love for it still grows. Instead, look at the quality of your life. Is your life constantly getting better as the destructive force of alcohol is weakened? What other destructive habits is the nal effecting? What new hobbies or areas are opening up im your life? So I say stay the course, give it time and watch a scientific approach to recovery manifest itself within you. I think you guys are all doing great. Peace. Start TSM 4/10/14, pre TSM probably between 60 and 70, going as high as 85 units per week for months straight. ............. Wks: 1-52.5.......... 11-42.75.............21-21.75, 2 af................31-17, 4 af 2-52.5.......... 12-36.75.............22-23, 1 af 3-53.5.......... 13-27.................23-25 4-51............ 14-28.75..............24-19.5, 1 af 5-50.5..........15-27.5................25-9 6-56.5..........16-27.5................26-14.75 7-51.............17-30..................27-19.5, 2 af 8-46.............18-34.5...............28-17, 3 af 9-46.............19-28.5...............29-17.5, 3 af 10-42...........20-14.5, 3 af.........30-17, 4 af
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