Potato - You sounded pretty irritated with those of us who doubt and question along the way. I understand, but do you understand? Strictly from my own standpoint, it has been 6 months and I feel NO CHANGE whatsoever. I think I am entitled to a little doubt...I'M TRYING...and will take NAL 1 freaking hour before drinking for the rest of my life..JUST IN CASE... but I am beginning to question whether or not following "the rule" is going to be my magic ticket out of this hell of being addicted to alcohol.
I'm really trying NOT to voice my doubt and frustration, but every now and then, these things MUST come to the surface. Don't be impatient. We are entitled to vent too. I am still hopeful, still hanging in, and like I say, will take the drug forever just in case...
But would like to be like many here who post reduced or none at all, cravings...just like you do. It is hard to follow the Dali Lama/Krishna/Moses devotion to this method w/ no real changes or results after all this time. Still - I will follow Moses but reserve the right to question & voice frustration.
Got to -
_________________ Began TSM 2/09 ave 35 - 50 units/wk Months 6 - 12 @ 100mgs 2/10 Dropped to 50mgs; units same 4/10 stopped NAL & started BAC thru River 6/10 up to 120 mgs BAC w/ MAJOR SEs 7/10 titrating off BAC 8/10 starting Topamax w/ Dr.
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