Well, tomorrow marks the beginning of my 7th week. Week 6 was a rough week for me. It involved a lot of drinking, discouraging feelings and even more self-loathing. I am thankful for my dear friend WTE, and a couple others who have posted here and on MWO.

I have realized that I am not alone, and the feelings I am feeling now, are the very same feelings that others have felt at the same point. I understand that this takes time, and I guess, I just want it to work sooner. I don't want my husband to look at me and think I'm not trying, because I am.

Tonight was a glimpse of 'normalcy'. On my way home, I fought with myself whether I stop or not for beer. Well, of course the stopping won! While in the store my oldest daughter locked the frigging keys in the truck. Thank God my window was down, but I didn't realize it at first. Talk about stress. I made it home, popped my Nal, knowing I was going to have a beer because I was stressed. I put in my time waiting, watched my youngest swimming in the pool.....to be honest, I didn't feel like drinking!!! WHAT?????!???!!!!! That is insanity!!! So I swallow my beer and it took a while! WHAT?????!! Lol....that never happens....then I puttered around doing stuff, and thought of having the second one. I opened it...and it took almost the entire episode of Intervention to finish HALF of it, and I dumped the rest!

YAY ME! That feeling tonight was the glimpse of the future was exactly what I needed to help me over this hump.

I feel hope.

That means the naltrexone is working! Stick with it! Chin up! Rooting for you!

Nick

Tomorrow marks the beginning of my 8th week. I have to say that week 7 wasn't great, but was better than the week before. I am starting to see glimpses of this working and I am loving it! However, I only wish it would be a quicker process. I fear that my husband won't see any improvement and think TSM is BS. He has quietly sat beside me....only the odd time making a comment, such as, 'Are you keeping track of these?'. I expect that. I have had one AF day this week. I went out for dinner and then a party and was surrounded by booze....but can honestly say, it didn't matter to me. I was not jonesing for a beer. Today could very well be my 2nd AF day for week 7. Let end it on a bang! We will see.....so far I feel fine.

I find now it's easier to fight off an impulse to drink. I seem to think it through a little more. However, there are the odd times, where it's more habit, and boredom and say 'piss on it' and drink anyway even though I don't feel like it or know I don't need it.

Cheers to week 8......should be a decent week, no big plans. The couple weeks after that may be tough a trip to a friend's cottage up north and camping with other friends the week after. Then coming up is my big trip to California, where I anticipate a little drinking. I will just have to relax and think it through.......

Hi. I believe you are seeing glimpses of progress but will see more in a little more time. I think it is harder to do this when there is a significant other sitting there waiting for you to do better. There are a few other people on here as well with a partner who is hoping for improvments who don't have the same problem. I would find this frustrating but I admire those of you who deal with this. I wish you success and hope you keep going because I think it can really improve your life. Cheers!

Well, it certainly has been some time since I have posted my progress. It has been pointed out to me, thanks WTE!!!

I have been off and on, though always taking my Nal. I have forgotten a couple days here and there, but maybe only 3 times tops. I have missed a few weeks recording my consumption, but have got back on track.....Thanks again WTE!

I have felt a bit of a difference the last couple weeks, maybe more the last week. I haven't had many, if any AF days for most of the summer, however, there are days that I do drink just out of habit. I can say there are days that I really don't feel like it and may only have maybe 4 beers, but then there are other days when I can't wait for noon and taking my Nal. So, there doesn't seem to be a rhyme or reason.

This past week has been different in the sense that....my desire has been minimized, and I have even had 2 AF days in a row! I am thinking today may be a 3rd! I do however have my year end baseball tournament for my 'beer league' team! So I anticipate drinking, but I am hoping my desire will be less. Time will tell....I am not going to stress myself out about it.

I will post and let you know how I made out.....if I survive the three games tomorrow!!!!

I am starting week 17. Things have been much better but I have introduced Bac into the mix. I am not as patient as all of you and needed to get my ass in gear. My kids were noticing and mentioning many time of my drinking, and I had to take some drastic measures.

My drinking has gone down significantly. Last week, week 16, I was at an all time low of 25units, and this week, I have been AF....not ONE unit.

I am feeling quite good about myself.......I know many don't agree with taking Bac, but I had to. I felt I had no other recourse.

Great news on your progress, Christy!

I think many disagree with taking bac for themselves, but I don't think anyone here would begrudge you doing what you feel is best for you.

My hope is that you continue with the nal to true extinction so the bac isn't necessary long term or even for life.

Looks like you made great strides even before the bac. Keep us posted!

That's awesome news Christy! Glad to hear you're doing so well. Regarding baclofen, I don't disagree with it, it's more of a preference thing for me. That route is my #2 if this fails. -E

Hi there!

Starting Week 18...feeling not too bad. I had one rough day this week, but not too bad overall. I am still taking the Nal an hour before I drink, sometimes it may be a 1/2hr, but never sooner. I am also taking Bac. It seems to be working well for me. When I go AF, it's not a white knuckle ride. I can go a few days and not want to rip my hair out!

Thanks for everyone's kind words and support! This has certainly been a ride!

I like your progress Christy -- we're rooting for you. Who cares if you are taking Baclofen, just do what works!