Back from Rome and finished my 3rd week.

The 2nd half of this week wasn't quite as mellow a 1st half. A couple of nights I definitely overindulged and felt a hungover the next day. Definitely ups and downs. But, it was nice to take advantage of the endless open bar and not do anything completely humiliating!!

It was hard to count units because I wasn't pouring the drinks but my best guess is week 3 ended with about 32 units.

Plugging along... BTDT

Oh, I know that feeling ... a successful is night NOT doing anything humiliating!! That puts a smile on my face. As one of my young childrens' books says, "Yay, You!"

keep plugging. you been there, you done that. but not on NAL. thanks for reminding me of why I still do this even though I couldn't stay AF tonight. 4 glasses isn't a big deal. thanks for posting BTDT

yeyyyy BTDT,you are doing great.You can't complain with that progress,just hope mine goes as well.
I think it must help having the support of your doctor,I kinda miss that so maybe I'll look up one of those addiction specialists.
But well done,3 weeks in,you are on your way and It sounds like it's going to work for you.

Cheers Phoenix.

I'm feeling pretty down on myself today Things were going well and then I overdid it yesterday. I also drove after drinking and scared my kids and hubby. I feel terrible today and bad about what I did. I really want this to work but I can't lose control like that again.

I'm going to take my first AF day today, if anyone wants to join me....this will end Week 4 at 37 units.

Hi BTDT

How did you enjoy Rome.

I wouldnt overthink yesterday too much. I think thats a trigger we all had to go through, you do well in a big sittutation and then wham you over indulge in what should be an easy one. TSM certainly does take time but if I thought six months ago when I started that I would be sitting here worried about hub and money and allsorts while there is plenty of alcohol downstairs and I have do desire to go get it to drown stuff out I would be amazed but its happened. Cant promise anything for tomorrow night though

Mario,

Thank you for your post. Your support means a lot!!! Today was tough. Last week was great but my regrettable last night shook my confidence. It really, really helps to have a place to come and share with people who are also going through it. Given everything you are going through right now I appreciate you taking the time. Hugs to you and your family!!

Rome was terrific. It was the first time my hubby and I had travelled overseas without the kids. The city was a wonderful place for a bit of a honeymoon. The food was great and I walked more than I've walked in a long time. Glad I could take nal and drink the wine too.

Thank you again.....

BTDT (but yes Joe I haven't been here and done this)

glad your trip was fun. don't beat yourself up about the other night. f anything, you're getting an AF out of the deal right? maybe you can parlay that into 2 in a row, or maybe you'll discover it's easier than it used to be. who knows?

and yes I'm joining you, pretty much. I took a couple sips and poured the wine out tonight, so we're going AF together. maybe we can make it happen again tomorrow. but I'll tell you, I'm bailing if it ain't easy. I'm on TSM to avoid abstinence willpower and discomfort

Joe,

Bummer that I didn't read your message until after I blew my AF night. I really would've joined you. Oh well. I am only 4 weeks into this and maybe not ready to take my AF time. I know my intentions are good. However, I did wait until I tucked my kids into bed safely.

If you want an AF buddy, I promise I won't bail next time. Thanks for being such a great support. This is tough and it is nice to have friends along for the ride. I'm rooting for you! BTDT

Yeah we walked miles and miles in Rome. We didnt do the open top bus untill the last day when we could have used it to hop on and off wherever we wanted, duh. Hubby and I have a week booked in Spain for early November and I swear on everything I believe in that Im going to find the nearest sunbed and I will have to be pried off it at the end of the week.

Try not to overthink TSM for now, you are only a few weeks in. We have been drinking alcoholically for many years and its not going to get sorted completly in a few weeks. Try to notice any possitives and hold them close, I think sometimes we have the ability to ignore the positives and to activly search out and dwell on the negatives.

Ive been here about 7 months and Ive had plenty of al free days(then again Im a binge drinker) but I always knew I was 'being good' by abstaining on those days, its only in the last few weeks that Ive noticed a shift in my mind where on those al free days now I quite simply dont have any interest in drinking. Thats not to say come Friday I wont be gagging for a drink BUT Im getting to where I want to be slowly but surely bit by little bit.