Last night I have no intention of drinking. I went to my therapist and then to a friends for dinner. At first the glass of wine that was on the table didn't bother me but after and hour I gave in. I didn't have NAL with me. I had at least 10 units.

It hit me hard and fast. I'm not sure I felt any different than I normally do. I did pass out and I think I blacked out.

Did this set me back?

Nah. Just keep on keepin' on - and take the darn nal with you next time!

It took us thousands of drinks to get addicted. It will take hundreds, if not thousand of drinks, to get un-addicted. Drinking once without your nal is not going to un-do all of the benefits you have been incurring with your ongoing extinction under TSM. Just don't make a habit of it and always bring the nal with you!

I know I thought I had some in my purse, I always keep it on hand. The only thing in that pocket was empty foil wrappers

I'm trying to think if there was a difference last night. I've not drank without NAL in 3 months.

Since I've been "off the hook" the last few weeks it is hard to gage it and I haven't been drinking wine since I went on vacation, I've switched to beer.

I took my NAL tonight to see if there is a different feeling.

I have to say I'm struggling so very hard these last few weeks, it seems I am drinking more harder and my cravings are worse than pre TSM. I go back and read the posts and I know I'm not alone in the Binge Drinkers Club.

I have to be truthful after the last 2 week-end benders and last night Mr. Providence and I have been fighting pretty heavy about my drinking. He would just nod before when I told him this would work, but this morning he said he doubt that it would and if it didn't we'd find another method. I asked him to wait another 1-3 months because I know it will. I sent him the link to this site and told him to read the Spouse section and to read SpringsRiders weekly progress of success. He did and he is going to support me in this process.

I know this is the answer and this board keeps me faithful to it!

Providence, I have the same issue with my husband. I'm only at week 11 but he's over my drinking already. He half-heartedly supports TSM, but it's hard for him (and for me, quite frankly) to not see any progress as of yet. I'm a week short of the shortest possible success timeline, and from being on this board I know it can take longer than 3-4 months. You are lucky to have his support. Sometimes when I'm discouraged, I have to go back to the book. Keep showing him the stats, believe in yourself, believe in the science.

Hey guys, kudos for hanging in there (here). This will work, but it is a darned roller-coaster ride for most of us. You can expect the increased drinking to go on for awhile as your brain starts to realize it's not getting that endorphine (morphine-like substance) rush, and demands more alcohol in its attempt to satisfy its addiction. This is just part of the process for most of us, and I may add that info to my letter to the spouses post. This increased consumption continues for 2-6 weeks, then there's either a sudden, or gradual, decrease in craving and drinking as the old receptors' wiring is gradually worn away and new neural pathways are formed.

What a ride!

I am in agreement. I have been on this program since February and I seem to be very steady in my 2 bottles of vino per day, but in the last two weeks I am noticing I only drink one bottle, but think I am still drinking two (even though I am not).
I simply love the fact that I am not inebriated in any way that I can detect. Once in a while I do feel the Al, but not very often. I most always have my "wits" about me.

I do still manage to drink more under emotional crisis. I will be glad when I can overcome that.

Great news indeed. Happy for you! Looks like it is really working for you!