So, I'm 10 days in. Yesterday was my first NA day in a while. I actually made it 2 or 3 days Jan 1. I wanted to go two weeks without, but I think that made me drink more, which lead to the decision to finally make the appointment to get the the Nal.
Anyway, yesterday was fine. I was hoping to do another today but that's not happening. Took the pill and planning on a drink in a while. I find myself fantasizing about down the road maybe I can be normal and enjoy a drink or two like I used to without the Nal. (Because, of course I don't enjoy it like I used to.) Yes, I've read the stuff. NEVER drink without it! But I AM fantasizing about it. In fact, after 1 day AF, I'm back to thinking I could have just 1 drink before the pill. Also, thinking maybe I should forget this whole thing.
All those thoughts went through my head. But I'm not going to do that. I am having a glass of wine now (after the pill). I am enjoying it ok, and plan on staying with the program.
But, has anyone else struggled with these thoughts? And stayed with it and got past those things? Also, what WOULD happen if I decided to have a drink without the pill tomorrow, or in a month? Is it really like I would be back to where I was before I started Nal right away?
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