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Thank you guys, again, for the encouragement and responses.
It recently has been getting tough to believe that I am improving as my S.O. decided to rant at me again for "not trying hard enough to drink less." I keep wanting to explain my problem to her but she doesn't want to hear it and feels like I have full control over this issue and just not trying. Needless to say, we either argue a lot about it, or just dont bring it up. She is, however, excited that I do see a problem and am taking steps to fix it. But just sux trying to vent to her.
This morning on my way back from a Work event I stopped at my usual liqour store. I could not believe how expensive my fav brand of alcohol has gone up. Yet another reason to slow down.
I dont know if anyone else experiences this, but On Saturday I was working as part of a Church fundraiser. It was a Very Very long and stressful event. once I realized that we would be done about 10 minutes till the end of the night, I suddenly had that urge again. Its that feeling of "Good job, now when you get home it is time to reward yourself." I did exactly that, and even forgot my Nal before the first drink. Made me pretty upset how easy it was to fall into that. At least 4 drinks later after nal I was so freaking tired I poured out the rest and hit the sack..
Anyways, Thanks again for the encouragement here. -GuyJeb
_________________ Start TSM: 04/09/15 Pre TSM: 80+/wk /0 AF
W1:70 W2:60 W3:56 W4:60 W5:55 G<50 W6:57 W7:47 W8:38 G<45 W9:44 G<40 W10-W17:40's W18:38 W19-W21:38's G<35 W22:34 W23-26 G<30 W27:23 W28: 2 Was Cured W29: 2
2/23/16 - Started again
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