Hi guys. This is a tricky one. I am one of those lucky ones for whom the Method worked in just about 90 days. This was a few years back. Great times followed. Amazing mornings. Since then, I have slipped twice. Once when I travelled for awhile without pills , and once when I was very sick without a car, and knocking the cold out with spiked tea seemed like a good plan. Lecture me if you must, but I already feel like an assface. Assface.........
Here is my question: On my third (

) time around, only three weeks into it of taking the pill, already I am not wanting to drink, and when I drink wine after taking the pill, I feel more like I am taking medicine, like a kid feels, more than partaking of this lovely ritual. So here is the question--should I just start stringing together some AF days? I feel ready. Or do you folks think that is a bad idea.
Bear with me, but I am a writer, and though I ramble, I can get the question more specific than the above, although I wanted you to know all the particulars:
Is Nal psychological or pharmacological?
Of course I know it's both, but what I find myself wondering, now that I am back in the trenches, is this: has my shame of drinking and good experiences with Nal already kicked in, via some PAVLOVIAN mechanism, hence that's why I feel ready to go AF for some days? Or does it really, physically, take at least three months for those pesky receptors to get "re-blocked".
And, if it makes a difference in your answer, for years I have never been drunk during the day (I used to be a cocaine/vodka 24/7 freak, twenty years ago), and now, before Nal and when I slipped, I always "only" have 2-3 glasses of wine, late at night. If that impacts your answer.
Thanks, seriously, more than I can say, for the help in advance. This is the only forum on the internet where I feel safe. The worst thing I have ever seen on this forum is "tough love" postings. We know how horrific this disease is. I just thank God, Sinclair, and you folks that I already know I won't be falling down puking drunk for the holidays. -humanin3d