i need some hope that this drug eventually finds its way...8 months first time, drinking the same... 4 month second time, drinking more then ever....

I'm sorry you're struggling, Wintyr. Care to share some more detail? We want to try and help.

Back in May, you said that you intended to follow the Golden Rule religiously. Did you do that?

You've done TSM twice now, with a break in between, and on neither occasion you've noticed any change?

If you're tracking the amount you drink and it hasn't decreased after a year (total) with this method, you may be one of those for whom it doesn't work. It's also possible that something else is going wrong -- you need a higher dose than average, perhaps, or you just have more learning to unlearn than most do. I made a flow chart a while back:

http://naltrexonekey.blogspot.com/p/troubleshooting-flow-chart.html

Maybe that would help?

I'm sorry that you're having such a hard time. I'll help if I can.

Thanks for your replies, was feeling sorry for myself last night, I do think its time for a higher dose, 50mg may not be enough for me....

wintyr, what happens when you try to drink less or abstain? Do you get a crazy feeling, or a physical sensation, or what?