I always look at the time of the post if someone sounds cranky

. I helped to set up this board and one of the things we decided is to leave open-ended the poster's capability to edit a post. If you could do a search by time and if you knew the location of the poster, well you probably can imagine what you'd find

. Some of the rants are actually hilarious looking back.
I know it can be hard to get your head around the fact that the immediate, short-term effect of naltrexone, while quite real, is essentially meaningless, and soften wear off quickly. When it does wear off (as it does for most), you risk disappointment and the mistaken belief that it's stopped working.
I know exactly what you mean about reading materials on addiction. They generally are preachy and try to explain that it is a disease; but, between the lines they guilt you into focusing on that 12-Step character defect crap. Most of us here have experienced a progressive resolution of many of the problems in our lives as our drinking waned. Crown86 is a great example of this. And that happened quite naturally, without baring our souls to a bunch of strangers who reek of stale cigarette smoke in a church basement.
I'm going to post a few quotes from Eskapa to hopefully entice you to read it and get a good insight into the science of TSM.
"[N]altrexone may block the pleasure -- if any -- from drinking. But pleasure is not why alcoholics continue drinking. . . . .
Your subjective sensations, feelings and emotions hardly change when you drink while taking naltrexone. However, the pathways controlling your drinking are incrementally weakened each time you do it. This occurs at the microscopic level of trillions of connections between neurons in the brain. Just as you cannot
feel the metabolic processes in your liver or kidneys, you do not
feel the de-addiction process as your nervous system is restored to normal." P. 106 (italics his).
"The Sinclair Method advocates a non-judgmental position with respect to addiction. . . . It is imperative that you try to avoid the stigma, taboo, and shame so often associated with the label addict, alcoholic, or drunk." P. 97.
"Be alert that, even very early in your treatment, you may occasionally experience a surprising ability to stop after only a couple of drinks. However, this decrease in drinking and craving is merely an artifact of the treatment. . . . It is a beneficial but weak effect. The powerful effects from pharmacological extinction develop much more slowly and cannot cure you in a week or two. It took a long time to reach your current drinking and craving levels and it will take
at least three or four months to reverse the addiction. Some people take longer before the neurological scaffolding -- the addictive wiring in the brain -- is brought down, reduced, and returned to its normal, healthy, pre-addicted state." Pp. 117-118 (italics his).
Some of us here -- especially those on the youngish side -- had some immediate reduction and just progressed downward from there. But most of us felt this early anti-craving effect for a while, only to have their drinking shoot way back up, sometimes higher than pre-TSM levels, before the decrease begins. You'll see as you follow threads that, time and time again, newcomers are admonished by the "old-timers" to expect a roller coaster ride rather than a smooth downward path.
My impression is that you are very bright. I hope I've piqued your curiosity and that you grow inquisitive about the nuances of TSM. Knowledge is power, and will prepare you for the almost-inevitable ups and downs you'll experience in the process. Many of the questions you've posted in various threads are answered in the book. There is even more information on this board.
Patience is one of the most difficult aspects of TSM. That's where we can really support one another on this board. One common complaint about the book is that it subtly sets the expectation of cure at 3-4 months; many if not most of us find that it takes many more months. Still, I suspect that after you've read about naltrexone's pharmacological mechanism, you'll revisit your decision to up the dose to 100 mg. If not, we won't hassle you about it, especially if you are making an informed decision.
Let us know how you're doing.
(edited to fix italics code and add a sentence)