This is definitely a great thread. I too have declared victory not too long ago. I waited to see if I would uptick significantly before declaration. It didnt happen. But... recently Ive found myself drinking just a bit over what I am comfortable with. However, this doesnt occurr on every occasion. On one occasion I can have just a couple beers and be fine but placed in a different environment my quest for fun wins out a bit and I go for that extra drink. Triggers and habit is what Im thinking. It took me roughly 40 pills to get to that point and I think 4 months. (Im a bindger) I have yet to come close to pre TSM levels though. I chalk up any increase in drinking to abuse rather than addiction, for whatever reality I am trying to escape at the time. In time, I will have equipped myself with better tools for coping and use other things as an escape. After all, everything is still so new to me.
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