Thankyou Guardian! Appropriate name. That makes me feel better. I want my problems and my private life to remain private. Thanks for your quick response.

Hi all, I am checking in. I have to confess that I have been very involved with the people from my school and did not take my pill several times and then had drinks with them and then noticed last week I was getting home and drinking too much and a few times scaring myself again which had not happened for a long time. So now I am back carrying my Nal pills with me and taking them again. I don't know what I was thinking by not taking them but I realized that I cannot do without my Nal. I just got super busy and felt, and still feel, that I cannot manage all the work I am doing at school. I just lost track of how much of a priority it truly is. I got drunk a few nights ago and turned on the oven to make a pizza and then proceeded to pass out on the couch and almost started a fire. I asked myself the next day. " what am I doing different?" then it hit me. " YOUR not taking your medication!" I am back on track now but have screwed myself up a bit I am sure by my neglect. Currently pretty pissed at myself for this. Feel like a fool. I am a smart person but not when it comes to looking after myself. That is a huge weak area for me and it is a horrible weakness. Thanks guys and gals.

Hey Tates -- Thanks for the mea culpa. It's a cautionary tale for the rest of us, and it shows you care about yourself and about us by sharing. Sounds like life is quite exciting these days, which is a good thing. Take care!!

Hi Potato - it's easier to do than everyone thinks...I am going through something similar (I cut my dosage and am now at high levels again)...

I think we do it because we feel normal, which is a good thing. The desire for alcohol becomes so under control that you trick yourself into thinking you are good to go no matter what. It's a lesson I'm sure many of us will have to learn and thank goodness we know how to fix it.

Glad you didn't start a fire and thanks for sharing this.

Hey - If you stop beating yourself up I'll forgive myself as well, deal?

Great point! Happy. We do it because we feel normal. I just got 90% on a difficult exam and am totally wrapped up in my career stuff right now.(probably too wrapped up), I guess I thought I could be normal. Or at least something close but I forget the past danger of my binges. Conveniently, I might add. I never wanted to be one of those people who had to take a pill forever, but I am. What really pisses me off is that it is for sudden dangerous binges. That is such a mind game in of itself. By the way we do have a deal, I will forgive myself and you can too, but that is one of the hardest things for me to do.

Lena, thanks my confession is a way to make sure I have checks and balances.

Hey Old Timer Tater,

Thank you ,...you help us newbies (and I was 4.5 years AA almost an old timer),...you inspire me...thanks so much...I guess we can NEVER FORGET the golden rule...he states it in the book 1,000,000 times,...ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS take your nal first.....We're blessed alkies with a choice...AAers don't have that option... (I'm not even cured yet,...my wife has me on the couch)...much support and hope,..Jim

I cannot celebrate my one year anniversary If I did not take it for 2 months while I was distracted., Listen to Springrider and others, not me. I am fine doing things the way I do them.
By the way my one year anniversary is Oct 6th,08. That is when I actually finished reading the book and told my doc to prescribe Nal to me.
I started taking it right away. I am old school.people are mean and dispute this. but I can prove it with receipts,

Might have that date wrong.

You ok hun? Why would anyone be "mean" or "dispute" your date?

Potato, I am so sorry about your dad. It must be very difficult to deal with on top of everything else you have on your plate.

It kind of struck me when you compared your 45 yr old self with "an addiction" to the 20 yr olds in your classes. I think back to my 20s and I was clueless. Plenty of your younger classmates are probably addicted to something but don't even know it -- yet. Older and wiser does mean something! (Well, not the older part....I could do without that).

You are a strong, capable person and I admire you!