Yeah, it might be best to dig around for my earliest posts here. I started this because I and a bunch of others were intrigued by Dr. Sinclair's discovery re naltrexone and anxious to try it. I had some success but I think the naltrexone I was using was fake or under-strength. I ran out once and another forum member sent me some of hers (obtained from a U.S. pharmacy) and the difference was night-and-day. I was unable to get a legitimate supply and ended up trying Baclofen instead. That didn't work very well either and then somewhere in all of that I got the DWI and just quit.

I think the reason both naltrexone and baclofen didn't work is that my issue with alcohol wasn't a physical addiction, though it sure as hell felt like one. I'd venture to guess that many others on this forum are in exactly the same position I was, needing only to be jarred out of it by some event. I cannot overstate how intense my craving/need for booze was and how completely it disappeared after that event.

I found I would stop after particularly scary events, but it was never enough to keep me stopped for long. I went through a lot of stuff as a result of my drinking, stuff that is still with me in some form today.

TSM really, really help me beat the physical bits.

Some of the MWO people, only a few, speculated that I actually wasn't an alcoholic, that TSM only works for people who can stop of their own accord.

Errr, I had some near death experiences and other really scary stuff, but I still couldn't stop!

I do know I am very lucky to be alive and that spurs me on every single day.

Would Love it if you would stop by again,

Jaba

My first question to you was going to be, does alcoholism run in your family? Because from your post I kept thinking to myself that you don't sound like an alcoholic in the physically addicted sense. The reason why TSM worked for me right off the bat from the very first dose is because it stopped the endorphin chase. After that it was literally over and then the only thing I had to deal with was the habbet and other addictive forces like as you mentioned self medicating for anxiety, social situations, holidays with friends and family, a bad job situation, etc...

But from dose one of Naltrexone it immediately cut off the physical biological and chemical addiction and that was all it took.

But your story is a great one and goes to show you that alcohol addiction wears many different hats. I do honestly believe that it's the hopeless physically addicted people like myself that respond to TSM so well while those struggling with the 'new' form of self inflicted addiction struggle with it.

Anyway, jsut to add on to what people have already been saying... Thank you from the bottom of my heart for this forum. This is the first place I came to after reading the article on TSM in The Atlantic that so many others have read and this forum may very well have saved my life. IT would not have been long before I would have been arrested for DUI and or killed myself or someone else. Like yourself my tollerence was so high I could drink enough to kill a frat boy and still convince the police I'm sober. Never had the DUI but 4 drunk in public charges.

Oh and also... As I'm sure you know, life is too short to work a shiddy job with and arsehole boss!!!!

Me too. One point about 7 years ago I started having panic attacks. I had no idea at the time what was going on but I'd just be sitting there like at work or something and all of a sudden I would get the symptoms of heart attack. Pounding heart rate, sweating palms, and just shear terror. It would come out of the blue, last about ten minutes and disappear. Of course I ignored it LOL. I was in major denial but it kept getting worse. I was driving by the hospital one day when it hit and I thought about going to the ER but instead pulled over and waited to die instead. It was really weird. I finally went to the doctor and passed all the physical exams so they sent me to the shrink. After talking for a while we came to the conclusion that my panic attack may have been a result of a body recovery I did while trekking in Alaska. My team found a girl who died in a cassavas and it was disturbing to say the least but it was also about two years earlier... But anyway... After the panic attacks I stopped drinking for 3 months and probably felt better then I ever had in my life when all of a sudden he wanted back in and before you know it I was right back at it again.