popin the pill...................3.20pm

that friend i called came over to see if i was drunk today.

interesting. i really thinks i am going to give him a 50K tractor for nothing one of these nights when i get looped.

pop'd de pil...........

cold tinggly feet

not craving a drink.......................

and now it seems like i took a valium or a double dose of paxil.
dizzy and somewhat panicy, but not manic.
kids have not noticed a thing.
i currnetly am not using those drugs. actually none.
stopped taking my adalat 30 becuase i know it was making me have
massive mood swings, especially if i missed a day and then took a pill the next time i could.

that happen to anyone, the adalat 30 (high blood pressure) make you get moddy, mad, it is my way or else kinda thinking?

off to make supper and then............i will tell when.

well here i go, drink one. feeling grumpy, abo0ut everything

drunk after 1 but no buzz, no happy go lucky feeling

head feels heavy. motor skills are better than ever.

actually, i do not like it b/c i am alert, very alert.

just got back from a drive, so alert, almost over alert.

pee, dark yellow, good pass though.

i just realized i have no appetite. humm missed supper last night too.

starting #2, 1/2 vodka and half water, big glass.

no desire, feel drunk, but awake and very alert.

so strange.

last night i was scared, tonight i am wondering if this is for me

no buzzz, like the happy feelings,

got the drunk going, but the brain is functioning normal.

strange.

feeling sleepy, but the head is wide eye open.

freakin people out here in the house.

drunk, but with a mind and can REMEMBER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

no more you say they said ****!

1/2 way on 2.

desire there but no happy cozy fire drunk feeling.

wife outside in grand rm, wondering who i am texting...................

interesting.......................

feel like throwing up, normal for the way i guzzle.

3rd down

mental clarity 90%

drunk, no buzz. mad i do not have it.

wife tried to cause an arguement, over nothing, caught it.

she is wondering WTF what the ****

my 8 yr old daughter has been let in on the program
no suprise, she is a man tracker
she cornered me and said what is up daddy?

she saw the differenece last night. she said i look sad.

last night.

she said she will bolooggg here tomorrow. without mother.

#3down. intelectual 100% booze buzz 100+- 100

so pghysically there is no problems, no akes and pains

dog is a bit freaked out, no abuse. does not know hw to react

simese cats are as usual, needey.....................

can have an other, but, the cap on my head is tight on the sides.

it is the sides of my head. frontal, seems they are tense.

just reporting from the front lines................................


blood pressureeeeeeeeee NORMAL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


sex drive ------30000000

sound + 200

intelectual awareness of what is happening around me
I SEEM TO THINK I KNOW WHAT IS GOING ON

going to bed,

everyone went to pick up son at friends.

i offered to drive, and wife said no, but daughter said yes.

she will post as my witness as to what is happeiingggg,

it is good. explained the program and she is on boartd.

drunk and no BUZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ


sorry, but i think i here a small buzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
fellllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll feeeeelllllllllllllll a smale buzzzzzzzzzzzz


NOPE,

brain is awake, and running.

DAY 2 sign'g OUT

see some attitiude?

xoxoxoxoxox

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