Well, I just passed my two year TSM anniversary, and while I thought of posting this in the "cured" list, I'm going to hold off on that for a bit. That said I do feel pretty much cured, certainly so when I look back to where I was when I started. FYI I was originally registered under all4one, but my registration got bounced for some reason.
So I took my 1st nal on November 9th, 2014. At the time I was and had been pretty much out of control, upwards of 60 units a week. Mostly light beer, but wine and occasionally the hard stuff. After 6 months or so my units had dropped in half, and stayed in the 30-40 range for remainder of the year, but it's only a guesstimate because I stopped counting after the first 6 months. The reason I stopped counting was because I was somewhat frustrated at the time, and thought if I focused less on the process it might help. I thought I'd just let TSM "do it's thing".
One thing I need to add at this point is that in the entire 2+ years I've been doing TSM I haven't blacked out once, not a single time. This used to happen once every couple of months, and was growing more frequent, but not since starting TSM. I could drink more than I should, and did all the time, but nal firmly installed a stop button, and I ceased having blackouts. I'd call that in itself a partial cure.
In the meantime my marriage of 26 years came apart, and this past summer I went through a relatively painless divorce. Don't anyone say "sorry", because it was for the best, and it's actually helped me drop a lot of baggage and move forward. Yes I have regrets, and yes my drinking was a huge part of the problem, but there were other problems too, and sometimes it's best to start things anew. In my post-divorce world I'm focusing on healing my relationships with my two sons, and so far so good. Time may not heal all wounds, but it can heal many.
So to bring things up to date, for the last few months my beer has started to taste like crap. After this first started I would force myself through the first couple, but now I'm trying to respect how I feel about it, and on average I have 2 maybe 3, and then move on to something non-alcoholic. Today when I decided to post I came up with the idea of counting the empties in my recycling which goes out every two weeks on Fridays. I haven't been paying attention, so it will be interesting to see if I'm honestly within the guidelines for men. If I am, well then I guess I'd call that a cure.
So for all the people out there feeling frustrated, thinking of giving it a try, wondering how long it might take.......all I can say is stick with it. My distaste kicked in at about the 18 month mark, and for a long time I never thought I'd use the "cure" word.
To Cheeto, Plantpro, Guapo, , Melissa, my FB family, and too many others to name, Peace to all!
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