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 Post subject: impatient.
PostPosted: Thu Dec 17, 2015 5:42 pm 
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i have been doing this for 2-3 months. i have been religious with taking the pill. i just continue to drink and drink and drink. my desire to drink is much less but that doesnt mean that i listen to myself and how i feel. i just drink through the not wanting to drink until i am enjoying to drink. am i destroying this for myself?


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 Post subject: Re: impatient.
PostPosted: Thu Dec 17, 2015 6:35 pm 
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<obiwan>patience Luke</obiwan>

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 Post subject: Re: impatient.
PostPosted: Thu Dec 17, 2015 9:19 pm 
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FT,

Patience is an easy word to say but a tough word to hear. BUT I agree with badger that is what is needed. It does take awhile for most people to really feel the effect and then get your old habits under control. I know it took me over 3 months to really start getting AF days and the numbers to start reducing. Keep at it!

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3/55/6
4/37/14
5/44/5
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Month 11 - did not count
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 Post subject: Re: impatient.
PostPosted: Fri Dec 18, 2015 6:18 am 
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Forewardthinking - I think that you just need to keep at it - eventually you will realise that you do not want to do what you are doing - or - just out of curiosity - so you REALLY want to stop? Or change the way things are ? If you are 3 months in, then you probably need to start thinking about the odd AF day - just one, now and then maybe. I agree with Reboot in it being hard initially to have Af days - it took me a long time and then I could only do it with the help of Antabuse ! hang in there and as Badger said - be patient....

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 Post subject: Re: impatient.
PostPosted: Fri Dec 18, 2015 10:27 am 
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Not to sound like a broken record, but time and patient is what needed.

I had to play mind tricks on myself to feel things kick in (or it just could have been the time on nal). I would start to feel anxious around 5pm if I hadn't taken my pill (my brain knew I had to wait that hour), so I would delay in taking it (but still waiting that hour) until I got to 7-8 PM. Then I waited longer than that hour, so at first it was 1 hour and 15 minutes...until I got up to 2 hours or so. And then one night I had taken my pill between 7-8 pm and here it was 10 pm and I realized I didn't have a drink yet and didn't want it. So poured that drink and thought this was crazy I needed an AF day.

I would drink water in between those sips of alcohol and drink a lot of water before I started drinking, for a lot of times I was just thirsty.

These things might help you, or you may have to find mind games to get your brain into the realization that you have control over the alcohol and not the other way around.

forwardthinking wrote:
i just drink through the not wanting to drink until i am enjoying to drink. am i destroying this for myself?


No, you are not destroying yourself. Your brain is refusing to believe that "buzz" or "ah" moment isn't going to come, so it tricks you into drinking more...but that "ah" moment doesn't come, but you still get drunk. I did that until over drinking caused nal overs, and then I started cutting back on my intake (I thought I was going to die with those nal overs), and once I started cutting back something clicked in my brain.

Just give yourself more time. And try to be nicer to yourself, for your desire is down and that speaks volumes! The rest will follow.

Jaba


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 Post subject: Re: impatient.
PostPosted: Fri Dec 18, 2015 7:01 pm 
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Agree. You are not destroying yourself. Patience. All the years a drunk, and now in such a great big hurry?!

If you find yourself not taking your pill and still drinking: Then you will be destroying yourself.

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 Post subject: Re: impatient.
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Nice to see you post Clarion, I thought maybe you left us for good.

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 Post subject: Re: impatient.
PostPosted: Fri Dec 18, 2015 7:56 pm 
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Nah. Either I eventually get bored and come here, or here gets boring and I need to come in and enliven it!

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