I have not had one sip of hard stuff since I started TSM not so much because I am afraid of it but because I only used it to get wasted. I do like a nice bourbon but it's probably best to stay away from it. I used it to get my endorphine WAY up high when I was actively drinking a lot. So any time I ever drank spirits it was out of control. I think it's the nature of the beast. I could never regulate it. The problem was I had no gag reflex and could take some seriously huge pulls off the vodka bottle in between beers or glasses of wine.
So maybe it's time to exercise a bit of mindfulness and stay off the hard stuff
It could be that the rush from it is so strong that it's pounding at the door of your blocked receptors and causing some sort of deprivation affect... I don't know.