Yes , you're right . it's just worry and a track record that inspires gloom if I don't watch it !!
I'll take the Pat you say as things are alot better .
That's wonderful for your AF's , the present is brilliant for you and well worth the whole experience .
Big Pat for you too .

G4M (& Jake, right?) - 2 days AF without trying. Awesome. Awesome..

Elfern - I like to try to project ahead too. And I get pretty competitive with myself about the weekly units (like..making sure I do an AF day to keep my #s down). But G4m is right...we need to just let it happen naturally and not worry about it so much. For me, it's just become a bit of a hobby, and I compete with myself to pass the time.

However, lately I have been thinking that in July (at 4 months) I will just see where I am. If I can drink at normal levels, my husband will be thrilled. If I can't, then I will likely just keep going a few more months to see where that leads. Because of this thread I just ordered 4 more months of Nal to be safe..so, I am defniitely planning to drink for a while I guess. I totally understand your thinking but I am actively trying to 'not plan' when I will be cured 100% so this doesn't end up becoming a stressor for me (not sure if that made sense or not - but I need to relax with this or it will become a trigger in itself). Someday I will look up and notice that, hey, I've just had 3 or 4 AFs in a row and I didn't even realize it. It may not be for awhile, but I know I am slowly going in the right direction.

I think I should let everyone know that once my Naltrexone ran out I had to go AF from Sunday until today (I haven't had anything today either). This is the longest stretch I've gone in years without drinking something. There were very mild cravings but they were fleeting and very resistible. Six months ago I'd have been going crazy with cravings. This stuff works!

Great news RV, thanks for letting us know. Amazing!

That is so neat & good to hear! I found myself not thinking about drinking at all today. I went to a memorial service & an afterwards at my cousin's house. There was wine, but I was planning on going back to work and it was just not an option. Later this afternoon, I was just tired (from staying up too late w/ you good people! LOL) and went to do my usual exercise/hit balls in the local park. I thought about having a glass of wine after liek I usually do - I'd taken Nal just in case. Came home about 8 & didn't even think about it until I was coming up the stairs! TOTALLY WEIRD!!

Hated to waste the drug (is that silly or what) but just wanted to relax w/ my Chard. Had one and my daughter came over. Now having a 2nd. I cannot tell you how valuable it is for me to pour exactly a 4 oz. glass and keep a count on my daily calendar. I still see 3/4/5/6s but it's better than the bottomless glass...Something very teeny happened today. Again.

And AGAIN - the book says 3-4 months MINIMUM...It makes me feel more confident I may be part of the success group! Am trying & hopeful! Your success is encouraging, N101CS - good for you!!

AWESOME!!!

You're an inspiration for the rest of us - Congratulations!

This episode brings up a few points I'd like to mention... None of this is directed at ANYONE - these are general points that occurred to me because of my situation.

The first is that "sharing" prescription drugs is technically illegal. Naltrexone is unscheduled (i.e., not a controlled substance) and there is very little chance the "authorities" would mess with anyone sharing it under the radar (they're too busy screwing up our economy anyway). I would suggest that anyone sending anyone else medicine use the recipient's name and address for both the shipping and return address. That way if something did happen, it couldn't be tied back to the sender.

Next is that if you get naltrexone from someone, you might receive a brand you aren't familiar with. Double check it to make sure it's the right stuff! You are, after all, getting it from someone who might be on the sauce when they package it up and you'd hate to be taking birth control pills or Viagra instead of naltrexone. Pictures of all of the pills can be found online. The stuff from River is in a sealed foil strip with Nodict written all over it so it's easy to identify.

Finally, and this should go without saying but I'm mentioning it so it's never an issue in the future: Alcoholism or problem drinking is a sensitive and/or embarrassing issue. During an exchange the sender, the recipient or both will likely learn the identity and location of the other. Under no circumstances should any information a person hasn't posted here him/herself be revealed to anyone else in any public or private area of the board.

Several people on the board know exactly who I am. They are as sweet and nice as anyone I've ever met and I am NOT calling their integrity into question. I just want everyone to know that when you're dealing with each other, private information stays private.

Revealing private information, even if someone has left the board or pisses you off somehow, will get you booted out in a nanosecond. If ever there is some emergency (someone is suicidal, for example) and you need to call help for them, do it on the phone with the cops, not here!

That is all. Carry on.