I am an alcoholic that, up until my divorce a year and a half ago, I would have categorized myself as a "functioning" alcoholic, or a maintenance drinking. Meaning, I drank 4-5 beers everyday, with the occasional stints of no drinking; maybe two week to a couple of months here and there.
But since the divorce, I have gradually become more of a 7-9 beer per night kind of drunk, with the occasional 14 beer blow out. And it's been that was for almost 2 years. Every night. I have MAYBE taken three or four nights off from drinking in almost 2 years.
So, anyway... I have been really thinking about this Sinclair Method and taking the medicine etc. And ever since then, I have become very aware of how much I've been drinking. I keep a log now, so that when I start to take the pill, I can compare how much I was drinking without, and then how much I drink on the pill. And ever since I've started keeping that log, it has really made me want to start cutting back. But here's the problem...
I have always had enough money, time, and access to alcohol, that I have never really experienced "withdrawl". Sure, back in the day I used to decide that I was drinking too much, and I'd step off it for a week or so, and the getting to sleep would be weird for the first two or three nights, and then after that, I'd be very sleepy, and sleep an UNGODLY deep sleep every night. Hell, the "sobering up" mornings, were worse than hangovers, sometimes.
But anyway... these days, since i have been trying to cut back, I usually just wait until much later to start to drink. Where I used to have my first drink at 5:00 - 6:00, I try to wait until 7:00 - 8:00. But what I am experiencing now, is a very VERY bad feeling. It is like a panic feeling. My neck hurts really bad. I sometimes get a head ache. And my hands shake as if I am freezing, but I am not. I get incredibly tense. And, distant, and withdrawn... and I don't even feel like it's an alcohol "craving", but I don't know what that feels like. All I know is, when I crack a beer, all that feeling goes away. Almost as soon as the beer hits my mouth, I breathe a sign of relief.
What the ****!?!
So, what I want to ask is... since I am obviously PHYSICALLY addicted to Alcohol. How does the Sinclair Method help me get to sleep? Or ease my tense neck? Or make my hands not shake?
Am I still going to have to go through all the withdrawals?
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