corkit - thank you (
love your username btw!!). That is another option to put on my list for research as I go back through this thread.
hoping4better - the lieing to my primary doctor is about me not drinking. I told him I have stopped, which is not true. He doesn't know that follow TSM (I have a private doctor for that, and the two are not in communication). I have had to lie because (a) he is not progressive enough to accept TSM and (b) he has refused to actively treat me in the past when I am resorting to alcohol.
Update for today - I slept very well last night, after about 9 UK units yesterday evening (a great leap forward in moderation for me). That made about 12 all told yesterday with my morning Whisky. I felt VERY sick today - this is the result of all I've been through for the last six days, but al least a little better than yesterday.
I felt less anxious though and far more able to control my Valium use. I took 4 2 mg tablet sover the course of the day, another huge improvement. I discussed tapering down this next week with my Gp and he prescribed enough to do that. I have forced myself to eat more today, so am still lacking energy. It will take me a few good days to build back up.
I pointed out that the surge in my anxiety had coincided with the norovirus I had a few weeks ago, the lack of eating for a week, and subsequent loss of appetite/nutrition/blood sugar. He dismissed that but it still seems a huge coincidence to me. Someone kindly posted about that earlier in this thread I think, so that is one of my research-starting points when I go back.
My GP again tried to prescribe me Prozac, despite my concerns. In the end I suggested that I spend the next week tapering down the sedatives and trying to get my nutrition/eating back on track now I am not drinking (cough, cough) and review in seven days, at which point we will continue to discuss anti-depressants (and to be honest I have become so sick of feeling like this I am getting tempted).
Then I mentioned that I'd heard of Beta-Blockers used for anxiety and he said 'oh YES that's a good idea' (!!) so he said we will talk about those as a first option ahead of the Prozac. This has given me the breathing space to hopefully build up over the next couple of days to feel well enough to research ALL my options (many of which you guys have so kindly suggested) before I see him next week.
I will post this 'little' update in my weekly progress thread too my friends, as well as info about tonight's drinking. Thank you for those who bother to read my long-posts that are not doubt incredibly self-absorbed, but it helps me so to write everything. If I ever do fufil my dream of being a published author though I will no doubt need a very ruthless and patient editor
