Hi all, I've never posted before. I started Nal 9th February and the result was miraculous. I've been a heavy drinker for years and although I've achieved periods of abstinence over the years - last year I did dry January and then a stretch of 70 days - I always ended up back to drinking up to 2 bottles of wine per night
Within days I was down to just a couple of drinks and feeling in control. I'd purchased my first two weeks online but got the courage up to go to my GP. She said it was a coincidence because she had been asked for it for the first time by someone else just that week (and refused it) but agreed to give me a month's worth because I'd obviously shown willing having bought it and I'd written her a letter being totally honest about my drinking etc. She kept asking about abstinence and I tried to explain about the golden rule but she didn't seem to understand. She said as head of the practice she would have to talk to everyone else there to agree any more for me. When I next needed a prescription I had to go through hoops to get to see her in particular, she informed me that she hadn't had time to consult her colleagues but would give me one more month and then would have to refer me to an alcohol centre and again kept asking if I was abstaining. I did try to talk to her about it not being a moral issue, that I was an addict, that I'd read all the material etc. but she didn't seem concerned, just that it was costing them.
So I ran out of the tablets and put off going to see her as it was so intimidating and soul destroying and then I drank, for two weeks, without Nal and low and behold was back to square one having just had an awful bank holiday weekend drinking all day alone at home. Thankfully I had told a friend with alcohol addiction about Nal and she kindly gave me two weeks worth of hers which I started on yesterday and had an awful night's sleep and feel very stressed today but had half the amount of drinks yesterday and have taken the Nal today knowing I'll have to wait til 6pm to have a drink (over the weekend I was starting around 11.30am!). I'm getting paid for a job this Friday (I work freelance) so I'm investing in buying 4 months worth of Nal online and not risking EVER drinking without it. I can't face the way my doctor made me feel. I did say that surely the cost of me continuing drinking as I did without Nal would cost the NHS much more - I have another friend who is diabetic and has pancreatitis because of alcohol abuse. She mumbled about side affects and I said that the side effect of alcoholic drinking was death!
I know I didn't give it a chance (only 2 1/2 months) and having frightened myself the past week or so (and my brother who I lived with and who had seen how well I had been doing on Nal) I'm determined to stick with it til the extinction occurs and I can either never drink or drink in a controlled way in future but always with Nal. I know it works. Nothing else does for me and I've done it all from rehab, to counselling to AA to expensive foreign detoxes!
Sorry, I've gone on but wanted to join in with the forum as part of my determination to get 'cured'! Thanks for listening!!!
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