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Around November 7 is when I started. So I am not yet into 3 months. I also don't see a big difference. I may be at lower end of my drinking but not every day. I can't see myself having a AF day in the next few weeks. Oh, well, I will see.
Took the 3/4 pill and I woke up late today. Not by much but by 10 minutes. I never do that. Took another 3/4 tonight.

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What a weird week I am having. I had a night that I couldn't sleep and others are filled with the oddest dreams. Some of these dreams I have had in my past. I am always searching for things and end up in places I shouldn't be. Could this be related to my drinking?
Every morning I have waken early then fall back to sleep and get up late. Then my day is set back.
Each morning before I get up I go over everything I am grateful for. Usually it is having a healthy body, a warm bed and home and money to take care of my needs. Yesterday I realized that I am thoughtful to everyone that is here to give me support. I am able to vent without being judged. It is a very grateful thing.
When I went to my counselor she was always a heavy and pushed AA, or rehab. Some may thing that works but I find myself resentful and as you can see haven't been back.
Again, thank you all.
I do hope that the Nal is my journey to a healthier future.

Meggie,

I once took a psychology class from a professor at Northeastern University in Boston who was very interested in dreams. He had each student keep a notebook next to his/her bed to record their dreams. He collected our notebooks and at the last class handed them back with his interpretations. It was startling what he knew about what was going on in the student's lives strictly by reading about our dreams. He hit on something that was an issue for me that I was not even conscious of at that point. There are lots of websites and books for dream interpretation.

Dreams about searching for things or being lost often indicate anxiety, and feelings of confusion and frustration. One website says "On a symbolic note, losing things in your dream suggests lost opportunities, past relationships or forgotten aspects of yourself." I think your dreams are about your your anxiety about the changes you are trying to make with the Nal.

Sometimes it takes more than one try to find the right counselor. It is a very personal relationship and you have to resonate with that person. Maybe you should try to find a different counselor. It helps to communicate what your needs are and what type of approach works best with you.

Dee

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Deena, you may be right. I also am trying to decide if I am going to retire. I have my 31 years plus into teaching. Should I go next year, I don't know. I have other things I need to do. Watching Dr. Oz and the author of EAT Pray lOve is speaking. I always say I don't have time and I know I have time to do this and that. I need, as she says, to be persistent in my journey. She said to put by butt in the seat and go.
I took an on-line course on dreams but they weren't as vivid as now. I will have to check it out. Thanks all. And yes, I started August 7th.

Watching Oprah and she is speaking with a man that says your dreams reflect your soul. Your dreams reflect your soul more then your everyday life.My dreams are horrifying at times. I always watch Oprah's Soulful Sunday and it helps me to get back to my spiritual self. Dreaming is the portal to understanding the most purest authentic self, where God speaks to our inner self invoking wisdom. God becomes unlimited in the spirit, reaching out and connecting to others in spiritual souls. This is telling me that I need to find a counselor or someone to help me calm my soul.
I believe there is a lot of wisdom in this group. I will take any suggestions.

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Another thing to add to my research. Oh, well, it's back to a Monday.