My husbands mania is based on how tired he is. His cancer is a form of leukemia and when his blood count is low he is so tired and he takes it out on the family. As stated he is on many medications. We don't spend much time together. He is always in the family room and sleeps in a reclliner because he has sleep apnea. I spend most of my free time in the kitchen or my bedroom. So we don't really stay in the same room together.
Last nights drinking was better. I think I need to go back up to 75, I like minemom don't feel anything. I mark my bottle and i have been drinking more. So I need a stronger dose.
My daughter lives with her boyfriend of 3 year, 3 weeks would make me nervous also. I love the guy my daughter lives with but we worry he may really be gay. My daughter worried about it also when they first started talking. I think she thinks because they have had sex he isn't. I do worry he will determine this once they are married. Oh, well, as you say they need to live their own life.

Hmm, I would think that if they have had sex, he isn't gay. He may also have some attraction to men, that he may or may not have acted on in the past, but again, that doesn't mean he's gay. And it may not be a deal-breaker for your daughter. Sexuality and sexual identity and gender identity are such messy things, and this is the right time for your daughter (and her boyfriend) to be examining these things. Down the road, it becomes harder, I think. But she'll find her way. Here's a quote that I got recently, that I both love and hate: I'm sorry for the difficulty your husband's illness is causing you. Mental illness can be so draining, and then dealing with cancer on top of it, well, life isn't always fair, that's for sure!

Sending supportive hugs.

====

Thank you all for your support and answers. Her boyfriend just has such gay mannerisms. Our family has several members who are gay on both sides. They also wonder. He is an only child of a very catholic , Irish family. I am sure they have thought it also. He has had other girlfriends. My fear is that he hasn't accepted that fact and it is comfortable for both of them. I don't think they think sex is a big deal and don't see the need. This came from a comment my daughter made awhile ago.
Ok, yes, I do need the stronger dose, up tonight at 0.75. I do feel the nalover but I don't see the I don't care feeling.
I have been reading minimom and am jealous of her because she has done very well. Also, is Maggie out of town. I hope she is doing well.

====

Someone is up late. I am usually in bed by 930 and this medication helps to make me sleepy. I did take 3/4 pill. I am tired but had a night of horrifying dreams. But the drinking was less. Jaba, I think my is also habit. I used to smoke over 25 years ago and breaking the habit was the worst thing.
Yes, we had beautiful big flakes. North of me there was lake effect snow. They got over 3 inches. If I don't have to be anywhere I love the snow. I feel it allows me the time to curl up and read or catch up on my shows.
It's Monday and it is going to be a long cold week. Happy Monday everyone.

Oh my goodness, Jaba!!!! You're doing FANTASTIC!!!! I'm so proud of you and can't wait to be where you are!!!

minimom, you are doing well also. If you drink 5 a day that would be 5 drinks and you are already down from that . Are you on the full pill?

====

Hi Meggie! Yes, I am on the full pill. I only took the half pill for a total of 4 days, I think, so I've been on the full pill for a couple of weeks. No issues with it, really...

And I don't really feel like I'm having much progress. Pre-TSM my weekly average was 3.5-5 drinks per day. Since starting TSM, my daily average is 3.5.... so I haven't really decreased at all from pre-Nal levels. I'm just at the LOW end of my pre-nal levels. I haven't felt a reduction in desire to drink, not have I noticed that the drinks taste different or feel different.... YET! I get it that I'm not an instant/early responder, so I'm just sticking with it! I know it takes time... it will for both of us! We're in this together!