Hi
I've been reading these posts( is that what they are called or blogs ?) for a few weeks and been alittle nervouse about staring since I'm the WORST speller and don't know my way around a comporter. I don't want to make it too diffaclt for people to figrue out what I'm asking or telling.
Boy comporters with spell check would have made my college life a whole lot easer, but that was 30 years ago.
I have lived AA my whole life. Alteen for years, aclohalic parents, Allenon, drunk BF, spouce, AA for myself. I do not want to offen the well meaning people of AA, or have them think this is a derogatory statement but I truely beleave my higher power lead my to TSM.
By college my al ceerer was well astablished, keeping a cooler of beer and a bottle of wine in my car at all times incase I wanted it or more often needed it. al used to give my engery, it was my freind, it made what ever I was doing so much more fun. When my kids were little I was the mom having over to top birthday partys, make big deals of holadays, dressing up with the kids on hoolowen, buying the largest xmas tree, you know the whole fun drunken mintallty, and having alot of fun.
I am a 24/7, well would be but thank god I have a job m-f or like the weekends I'd be drinking frest thing in the morning. And for the past 6-7 years al has been soaking up my soul. I think it was Amy who said she feels like a "shell of her self", well I am there too. I have little instest in anything. I'm there for my teenages but with no inthuseasin. I miss me. The blackouts are aful,
the kids always saying "Mom I told you that yesterday", forgetting apportments. My BF of 9 years like to go out to dinner, last night we went to a wounderful french place, great wine, a waiter who was trying to pull off a french accent and a $250 bill for the two of us --- and I can't remember what I eat. BF told me that I loved it though.
I started TSM on the 19th augest. My pre TSM was 60+, last week I was 47, begaining of a hoonymoon maybe. I did two 25mg sesions with no and I mean no side effecks. When I started 50mg I was a little spacy, but used to that felling being I'm hungover most of the time. There was and is no nausa, the dreams are more vived but I've always had a wiead sleeping patterans, sleep walking, reagganging forature in my sleep, ect.. al indused. I don't feel as drunk, sluring words, stumbing and such. But I am getting a buzz quicker. The biggest thing I have notice is that I wake up with no or little hangover. I can't remember a morning in years when I woke up felling ok, It is the strangest felling, a great felling.
I am putting alot of hope into this, I know do not over think it, I'm not right now but I know me and will try to find a way to excellerate the prosses. I am so eager to start me new life without or at lease little al inveled. My kids are teenages and wont be around much longer, I so don't want to waist the little time I have left.
Thank you the CRURED ones for still posting, I hang on your ever word, it gives me hope.
So like it was said (sorry I forgot who started this) I am so ready and also scard (where do I go if it dosn't work) to jump on this moving train!
And again sorry it's so hard to follow what I'm saying (please let there be spell check out there somewhere) Also I don't know yet how to figure out having a attacment of my (hopeful) progress.
Thank you my higher power for your gaidance and thanks to all of you, you give me hope.

That's awesome! Welcome aboard!! It's a bumpy train ride, but we've got your back!

Hi can'tspellsowell,

Welcome aboard the train. It departs "sick and hopeless" and makes stops at "feeling better", "honeymoom junction", "Rollar coaster", "seeing progress", "drank more than I wanted", "having doubts", "making progrress again", "this may be working" and, " What the hell is going on..this is working". The train arrives at "I am cured" sometime after the 3rd or 5th month. Some times the train reaches "I am cured" a bit later but if you follow TSM (outlined below), there is an 80 - 90 percent chance that the train will get there. Do not worry about spelling or anything except getting cured. Read the book, keep postive, keep taking your NAL before drinking, keep a jorunal, and keep us posted.


From a June 2009 om a Press Release
The Cure for Alcoholism: Drink Your Way Sober without Willpower, Abstinence or Discomfort
by : Roy Eskapa, PhD with a foreword by David Sinclair, PhD

The Five Steps guide the reader through the de-addiction process as follows:
• Step One-Understand and think about addiction in an entirely new way.
• Step Two-Check the severity of the problem and find out if help is required.
• Step Three-Working with a physician to obtain a prescription for Naltrexone.
• Step Four-Learn about alcoholic beverage measures and keep a record of drinking and craving as the journey through de- addiction begins. Now the patient is taking Naltrexone before drinking alcohol. As he or she become de-addicted
craving and drinking levels gradually and automatically decline.
• Step Five- The cure takes about three months. Now the goal is to stay cured once the program is completed. Remember
the Golden Rule: ‘Never drink alcohol without first taking Naltrexone. If you do, you could become readdicted within
several weeks.’


PRE 02/2006. 100-200 Units per week ==> Began AA for the 15th time
Pre TSM 10/08 - 04/09. 50-150 Units per week

WK 17 Cured
NALTREXONE + DRINKING = CURE

Best Regards and Best Wishes
Tom

Welcome!

The train moves at different speeds for each person. Your personal train to the cure began when you first took the nal one hour before you drank and continues at your own unique pace. Don't be shy about spelling and whatnot, the ONLY issue here is getting cured through the help of your new friends on this board. We will answer any and all questions you have to the best of our ability. First, make sure you take that nal one hour before drinking EVERY TIME YOU DRINK. Then, have a little patience because it's going to take several months for the ride to end. But end it will, and your life will be yours once again.

Welcome! Don't be shy about asking questions or describing your experience.

All my best,

Nick

Dear Can'tspell - don't worry about it. We can all read phonetically and the important thing here is that you follow the "golden rule" . There is much hope - and I think you will find huge amounts of encouragement and support here. It's a "3-4 months" minimum. Time frame varies, or in the words of Dr. E "undulates"...:-)

welcome!!

Hey Can'tSpell - welcome aboard!

My train ride has been slow, with lots of unexpected stops along the way, but I'm starting to enjoy the scenery now. I also have teenagers, and I'm happy to say that my relationship with them has undergone MAJOR repairs during the past 6 months. We've never been closer, and haven't been this happy in years. TSM really is a miracle. Just beware - I think the conductor sometimes gets drunk along with the passengers, but somehow we'll always get you back on track!

Hi can'tspell,

A warm welcome from me!

I found your post very moving. And now it's time for the train to move. As you said, you've been aboard since 19 August. So, put your feet up, talk to the passengers and I hope you enjoy the ride. As Lo0p says, it can get a bit bumpy at times and it can be a long journey but when you finally leave the train and join the Cured, you will have made the journey of a lifetime.

All the very best to you!

V.

Thanks you guys so much for the encuragment and support. Kris thanks for including your
experiences with your teenagers, I can't wait till I can say the same. Tom suggested I read the book, I did and all of it a one time-- never did that before, I just couldn't put it down.
Thanks, Thanks, Thanks