Hi everyone,

I ordered my naltrexone a week ago, but it's coming from India so it will probably take a while to get here.

Here's a little background on my drinking habits: I didn't start drinking until after I had graduated from high school; I just never had much interest in it. But from my very first drink, I could not get enough. The very first night I ever drank, people told me I should not drink. I have heard that a lot since then, and I believe it.

But abstinence isn't something I feel like I can rely on. AA never did much for me, although I really admire the people who stick with it. I did quit drinking (went cold turkey) for several years, because my drinking had gotten so bad that I lost pretty much every decent friend I had. I spent years rebuilding my life, but then unrelated circumstances came along and left my life in shambles despite my straight-and-narrow path. Somehow I just caved, and started drinking again a few months ago.

I can go weeks without having a drink. There are lots of days when I don't think about it at all. But then when I have one drink, it's all over. It doesn't matter how hard I try, and I am a person with a lot of willpower in every other area of my life. It simply does not matter. One drink, and I can't stop. I just want more. I will drink until the bar closes, and then go home and drink more. I black out, say things I would never say, do things I would never do, and wake up feeling like I am dying. I am losing respect for myself, which is the worst part, even worse than the terrible hangovers that sometimes last 2 days.

I am really worried, because I know exactly where this is all headed. I don't want my life to fall apart again. I am tired of starting over. I am just praying naltrexone can help me.

Well, you sound like the world's perfect candiate for Naltrexone. If you're one of the many people who respond well to Naltrexone, it should be able to knock that crazy, insane "must have more" bullsh*t emotion that has gotten many of us in trouble. It shouldn't be much longer until you can try it.

Suggestion: Since you're such a maniac once you start, you might want to try a "controlled" first trial. Perhaps with a good friend or loved one, in your house, with a very limited amount of alcohol available. I always suggest finding ways to "sabotage" your crazy drunk self while you're still sober and rational.

Good luck and please keep us posted. That sounds very interesting. And, remember, prayer won't make Naltrexone work. Naltrexone works efficiently and quickly to do its one simple, mindless chore: blocking 100% of your opioid receptors.

Thanks barryb, that is a really good suggestion! I will start out that way & let you know how the first trial goes when my order gets here.