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OK i started on the sinclair method a number of months ago ( i cant actually remember exactly how many, because keeping records went out the window - one cause for concern ).. another cause for concern is that when i started i can remember buying a specific amount of beer, and monitoring how much i was drinking.. finding a definite "difference" in the alcohol and totally able to drink what i had limited myself to drinking... however, i found i almost drank myself sick of beer, and moved onto cider.. i drank cider until i got blind drunk a few times but luckily with little casualities, although by this stage i was not monitoring how much i was drinking, i was just stil chasing that "high".. today, i can honestly say, i am sick of the taste of apple cider, i mean drinking it makes me wretch, which i suppose is a positive, but now i am drinking PEAR cider... as i put the 2 litre bottle of pear cider to my mouth i thought to myself, is this working.. in one way maybe i will elimiate every option available to me by way of the thought of it making me sick, or am i living in placebo land? please any input, im a young guy and have a good career ahead of me, i am however an alcoholic, and i dont want my life ruined by booze i would like anyones experienced input on what im describing please... i have always taken my naltrexone before drinking or sometimes when its upping on me taking another pill during drinking... sometimes it makes me sick while drinking but that doesnt seem to stop taking the drink.. im always determined to hit the sweet spot :/ ... one major thing i can say through the whole thing is that i never seem to feel like im done for this time, i havent had that feeling since i started on nal, always alot more upbeat, postive and not even paranoid about buying it but i dont know what to think... :/
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