I have no other choice or I will lose the appartment and my mother's support and everything. Too much to lose.

I am trying and implementing TSM secretly, but why do I want do drink more and more? Where's the extinction?

My guess is you drink more and more because you have an anxiety problem that isn't resolved and you find that alcohol is the only thing that makes you feel better in the moment. You also can't use TSM the way it was designed to be used because of your parent's demands and your supply of Naltrexone. It could also be possible that you need a higher dose of Naltrexone, but getting adequate treatment for the anxiety problem would be the most important thing.

Yesterday I forgot to take Naltrexone and I drank. Is this very bad?

It moves you towards being more addicted, but if you remain compliant from here on out, it won't mean much in the big picture.

Maybe I need higher dose but what should it be? 75mg or more?

How much in TSM is our mindful drinking important? I mean when I drink 2 beers I want more but I know I have to limit myself to be able to function like a normal person. How much do you limit yourself?

About the higher dose, it's difficult to say. From the posts I've read, people just try increasing their dose 25mg at a time.

Being able to limit yourself tells me that it isn't a craving at that time. Craving will keep eating at you and won't leave you alone. So if you can drink 2 and be done with it, do that. The more you drink per day, the more likely that you won't be able to stop at a reasonable number. That's why it's important to notice how you're feeling, so you can notice when you're crossing the line where you lose control of the quantity you're drinking.

I took 75mg 2 hours ago and I am drinking first beer, I hope to stop at one or two. This time I am trying to be very mindful and ask myself if I really want to drink more. I guess I was drinking a lot out of the habit and my brain got used to that. I have to limit myself though to make it all work. Did you also have to limit yourself at some point because you were drinking too much?

I guess I was drinking through Naltrexone, which means the effectiveness of the pill was smaller or none. I want to drink as rarely and as little as before that binge. I was successful for almost 2 years and I believe I can get back to that.