Retread,
I am so sorry to hear that you are having difficulties, for I have been thinking positive thoughts for you.
Please reach out to the C-3 foundation, for JoAnna or one of the other counselor might be able help you.
As far as the Benzos goes, I think there are other drugs out there to help with anxiety, and there are other drugs out there to help with alcoholism, but I would have to do some research to see what drug can be used with Benzos to help with alcoholism.
Unfortunately, I have read that anxiety and alcoholism goes hand and hand. Some doctors will prescribe Benzos to help with the anxiety from alcohol withdrawal, and then benzos will have to be slowly tapered off of to avoid withdrawals. But I understand that stopping the benzos are out of the question for you.
I understand that you are taking these drugs for you anxiety and you cannot get off of them because it causes your anxiety to increase, but have you spoken to you doctor to see if there is another drug that you can take? Are you in therapy for your anxiety? Is your doctor a psychiatrist? I know that you said your doctor is good at pharmacology, but psychiatrist are doctors that deal only with mental health issues and would know exactly what drugs would help with your anxiety and your alcoholism.
My heart goes out to you retread, for I can imagine how difficult this is for you. You could try TSM again and maybe use HAMS to help with reduction instead of drinking like normal.
Jaba
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