No, you are not screwing up, for that not caring about alcohol happens once you have control with TSM not before.

I agree with what badger said.

Forwardthinking,

I remember how scared I was when my intake went up, and it even scared my husband. But I promise you it will get better. Just take a deep breath and trust the process, for it is going to work for you. You had a honeymoon period, for that is a good sign, and remember how that honeymoon felt, for that is how it will be once you are in control only better.

Take your nal., wait, drink, and track your drinks. For you may start to see a decline without even noticing it until you go back and look. I never went back up to 2+ bottles of wine a night, and to think I could even drink that much amazes me now.

Your time will come, I promise,

Jaba

i do already sit there and ask myself is this what i want. i do that a lot. i just dont stop drinking. i know that its largely a habit. its also what i fill my free time and space with.

Forwardthinking,

That was me. My children are adults (but still living at home), and my husband travels a lot (just made diamond with delta), so to fill my nights I would open a bottle or two or three...if thats not sad.

I have found getting lost in the postings in this site or the Options Saves Lives forum helps fill my time. I would go to bed earlier, for I knew I had enough and I couldn't trust myself to stop. I love puzzles, so I started doing them again. And I find programs that my husband wouldn't enjoy, that I can watch when he is gone. AND I drink a lot of water. I will have to get up in the middle of the night at times, but it beats the 100s of calories I would be drinking. Adding lime or lemon helps (even if it is bad for your tooth enamel).

Finding other things to get your mind off drinking does help (but I know you know that), and realizing you can stop, but it will take time and practice for that.

You will be able stop drinking with time, but it will take time. The best thing anyone told me was to drink as slow as you can, and drink water in between sips of wine. Try to make that first drink last as long as you can. Make it a hassle to fill that next drink (I would push the cork all the way down so I would have to uncork the bottle again...sometimes I would fail). Do not have that bottle sitting right next to you, for that makes it too easy to refill.

As time goes by, you will notice that glass will not fill up as much or it will be your bedtime and the glass is still half filled (don't try to pour it back in, for I have failed at that as well). Like I said it is a slow process and happens suddenly. Those little things are small little victories, and they will happen for you in time.

After my honeymoon, I did have a heck of a time controlling my intake. I had 3 nal overs (2 back to back), I was back up to 1 3/4 bottles of wine at my worse. You are not alone with "I just don't stop drinking", for I was there, and so are a lot of TSMers.

Keep the faith,

Jaba