Hi all,
I haven't really participated in this site very much at all. In the early stages, I did a lot of reading of other peoples' posts, but really don't visit very much. Anyway, my last drink of alcohol was 2 June 2012, and I'm going to call "cured", although I don't think three months is really long enough to know.
I have some thoughts on the whole process that I want to share with you. I am a skeptic by nature, and approached The Sinclair Method with this mindset. Not that it would not work, but rather, having reservations, and trying to keep an open mind, all the while desperately hoping it (TSM) would be be miracle I sought.
Background: Approached my GP early 2011 seeking help for alcohol dependency - I was consuming more than two bottles of wine a day. My GP referred me to counselling, where I learnt about The Sinclair Method, which I started July 2011. Had virtually no days alcohol free for the rest of 2011, and did not see a drop in alcohol units consumed. Did notice, however, at the four month mark, that a rare AF day took very little effort. Stopped drinking early Jan 2012, but relapsed March (after attempting "moderation"), and drinking returned to pre-TSM levels. Stopped drinking altogether on 2 June 2012.
Thought 1: Although the Sinclair Method claims to be a cure where participants can gradually return to "normal" levels of drinking, there have been a number of people on this board who have described it as "Slowing the train enough so they can jump off." That's exactly how it feels for me. Even though it currently takes virtually no effort to remain alcohol free, I don't believe I am cured "enough" to drink moderately. I don't know if continuing TSM would help me to get to that point, but I see no need to try. I am quite happy to be completely abstinent - I feel much better, look much better (lost 16kg since June - what's that, about 35 pounds?), and don't miss the drinking at all.
Thought 2: At my initial visit to my GP regarding my alcohol addicition, I asked him for "something that would make the little voice inside my head go away, the one that tells me to seek out and consume alcohol. " Well, it's gone. If not 100%, then certainly 95%. But I am certain there is more to alcoholism than just that. Which is why, at least for me, the goal needs to be to jump off the train once it's slow enough. I honestly don't think the goal of moderation would have ever worked for me.
Thought 3: Just because people claim to be cured doesn't mean they are. I had thought earlier that I was cured, told a number for acquaintences this, and eventually attempted to drink in moderation. Didn't work. One of the things I don't understand is that if TSM has such great success rates, why is it not better known in the mainstream? It has been around long enough, and we know that scientists and health professionals talk to each other, all across the world. It is this concern that was the basis for my initial skepticism when I started. I did search for scientific rebuttals to TSM (as opposed to anecdotal rebuttals, or just uninformed opinions), but did not actually find any. If anyone knows of any, please post details / links, etc.
So there you go. Now that alcohol plays virtually no part in my life, I find the motivation to come back here is less and less. I know that in the early stages, you crawl through the messages, looking for people who describe how wonderfully TSM has worked for them. The problem is that by the time they really can claim to be cured (six months, a year, two years alcohol free), alcohol really isn't on their mind, so coming here is unlikely.
I'm going to put a note in my diary to come back at the six month, nine month and one year anniversaries of my being alcohol free. If I'm still alcohol free then, I'll post a message. Hopefully that will be a little bit of encouragement for those that have just started.
You can do it. Just don't be afraid to jump off the train when the time is right. Life is so much better if/when you do ….
Callum
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