Nutella, I wouldn't be so down on yourself. I'm not sure if you're M or F, but 14 units in the US is considered standard/healthy for men, as far as I've ever heard from doctors. If you're hovering around there, even if you feel like you have to take the nal to accomplish this goal and possibly think a little more about drinking than you'd like...I don't think that makes you an alcoholic. And I don't believe there's this great gulf between drinkers - as though non-alcoholic drinkers NEVER had a problem drinking night, or never used alcohol to cope, or never thought about drinking a little too fervently. It sounds like you're describing some sort of zen-like detachment from material things. I think about food a lot. I not just about nutrients and bare subsistance. I don't have an eating disorder of any sort nor have I ever had. I just enjoy (good) food, that's all. It's possible you just enjoy having a drink or two every day. And if someone tries to take that away, well, that's unpleasant.
Now maybe I'm reading too much into your comment, but I just wanted to be supportive and say that a) your progress is great and b) even if you're not exactly where you'd like, I don't think it sounds like you're exhibiting alcoholic behaviour (from way over here

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