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 Post subject: NZspeak cured.
PostPosted: Tue Dec 27, 2016 5:49 pm 
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I guess the first step in a cured post is to explain what we think 'cured' is. If we drink without Nal, after a while, our cravings will return just as before so obviously ‘cured’ does not mean ‘cured for ever, no matter what’. For me, cured simply means- no longer craving a drink and I'm 99% certain I will never crave one as long as I obey the golden rule.

I started getting drunk, at least every week, when I was 14. I was a shy lad who liked a bit of adventure so I loved drinking since the get go. I drunk with heavy drinkers but I always felt, even then, I liked it a little more. I also could never have one or two- I was a pass out/black out drinker. My mothers side of the family is riddled with alcohol abuse so my Dad was concerned even back then.

Towards the end of the school days my tolerance for alcohol disappeared. I'd have horrible blackout with inappropriate behavior, these got worse over the years. After I left school, drinking drifted into the weekdays sometimes as well. It seemed the more often I drunk the worse my tolerance and behavior came. I moved countries and my drinking increased again. I returned home a mess, friends and family didn't know what to do with me. I started going to AA but being shy and an atheist it didn't work out. I soon dropped out but white knuckled it for a year. Started drinking again and began to crave alcohol the next morning but I'd go to work then often drink when I got home. If I managed to avoid drinking the next day the urge to drink would leave for 2 to 3 days. Once I felt 'better', cravings would return.

Started taking antabuse around 28. I took it on and off for a few years. It sort of worked. I'd drink on the end of its cycle all the time. If I remembered I hadn't taken it for a while, I'd drink but it did drastically reduce my consumption. Because of the blackout and the poor behavior (escorted off the plane by the police, woke up in a Jewish monastery!? (I'm not religious... or Jewish) I really, really, really didn't want to drink but that didn't help with cravings

I came to live in North America at 35. Overdosed on drugs while blacked out. Found this forum

About 1 year ago, I took Nal for the first time. First day on Nal, day drunk and had a blackout. Drunk slower than normal, didn't get quite the same euphoria, and it killed my appetite. Had massive hungover on the morning, vomited multiple times, didn't eat the whole day.

Have never blackout since. Usually would have roughly 100 blackouts a year.

Nal worked straight away for me. Within a couple of months my desire to drink had gone. I don't enjoy drinking on Nal. Some people don't notice the difference to me it's like night and day. The alcohol taste ****, I loose energy rather than gain it, I actually get tired and a little grumpy. The pill tastes terrible (it started dissolving in my mouth once before I could swallow it, it was a HORRIBLE experience). All of that not 'enjoying' is irrelevant really, the most important thing is I had no cravings either- it maybe took 2 months to no longer crave a drink.

Not being a black out mess enabled me to get/keep a girlfriend. This was not possible pre-nal. The Problem was NAL ruined my sex drive, not just on NAL but days afterwards. I had just met this girl so I decided to stop taking Nal to fix the problem and get back on it later.

After a couple of months back drinking without NAL, I was back where I begun- restless & irritable and always craving drinks. I didn't actually put a finger on the cause of restlessness until I started taking Nal again. I've always thought I was just extremely ADHD.

I started taking Nal again after a couple of moths off, again it worked quickly. I haven't got drunk since starting again- let alone have a blackout. I don't really drink anymore actually. I went to an NFL game on Saturday and didn't get a drink because I couldn't be bothered lining up at the concession stand. Sex drive issues don't seem to be as much as a factor this time around.

Sometimes I see people post that Nal isn't a magic pill- well, it is for me.

The 2nd time around taking Nal, I was in the middle of a restlessness diary. I was trying to work out why I was so restless & angry all the time. I would give my anger and restlessness are numerical score a few times a day and I trying to find out what was driving it (diet? sleep?). Well, once I started taking Nal again these scores nose dived. I realized the reason I was so restless/angry, at work especially, was because I was craving a drink and not having one. Nal has drastically improved my mood because I no longer crave a drink.

I feel that this board changed my life. Almost completely. Without it, I'd still be that lost, sad soul, looking everywhere for a glimmer of hope.

To all the people who've posted here. Thanks for sharing your struggles and your triumphs. The stories I've read inspired me to finally fix what I've been battling my entire adult life.


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 Post subject: Re: NZspeak cured.
PostPosted: Tue Dec 27, 2016 8:03 pm 
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Congrats, NZ! I can totally relate to your narrative. I was with a couple AA friends briefly tonight and the 79y/o with 40yrs abstinent said, "Well are you going to some meetings, Bardo?" "Ha! Why!?" fell out of my mouth. He choked and was caught off guard by my enthusiasm. They'll just never get it I thought to myself. After all it's been 13 months. Anyway I always love to hear a success story. Well wishes.


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 Post subject: Re: NZspeak cured.
PostPosted: Tue Dec 27, 2016 8:05 pm 
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What a fantastic victory, NZ! That was a hell of an addiction to overcome and you came through with flying colors! Well done!

Thanks for joining us for your journey and for your support of others who were getting started. We hope you'll stick around and pop in when you get a chance!


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 Post subject: Re: NZspeak cured.
PostPosted: Mon May 22, 2017 3:30 pm 
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I know you posted a while back, so might not be coming around anymore. Anger is a common withdrawal symptom.


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