Gc1979 wrote:
Nal has completely taken away that euphoric rush for me and all I get is a weird numb feeling with a touch of irritability. I can't say that its not pleasurable but I can't say it IS pleasurable. What I can say is that it is different and I definitely feel like the pleasure has decreased.
I'm one week in and this fits me very well. It's like I start my routine daily binge, I know exactly when it should start to rush and I get right up to the edge, and then I just sort of even out and don't ever take off. As I drink, I feel the physical impairment start to rise and it's still kind of an escape, but mostly it just makes me uncomfortably tired much sooner. I can see where it might become much less appealing.
Of course I also just tallied up my drinks for Nal Week 1 and I'm around 59 US. So I guess it's not that unappealing yet. Shocked the hell out of me. Never honestly counted drinks before. I had no idea how much I've been drinking since "going out" and leaving AA a couple years ago. Been a long two years looking for other answers.