elfern wrote:
"Not rats in a cage ", true , true ..
Don't give yourself so much credit.
Okey, I am not the doctor but the point that your character started to fall off the wagon was the point the Nal started working.
You are pretty smart. You have read what is available at this site. You know how it works and how it does not work.
In AA there were all kind of rituals you had to follow to "fake it till it works". That ain't what's happening here. It's like throwing your dirty undies in the laundry and adding the soap and bleach. You can sit aside and wish that they get cleaned and you can wish that the skid marks remain. Don't much matter because the Whirlpool is simply operating as designed. And so is your biology.
Follow the protocol and accept the results. See you on the other side.