I've started reading about the connection between anxiety and drinkers and somehow it's starting to make sence in my situation.
I have always from a very young age laughed hysterically and not be able to stop.
I remember when I was probably five or six years old and it was christmas week,a few Christmas cards were coming through the letter box on the door,I went into a fit of laughing and couldn't stop.Those fits of laughing happenned quiet frequently all the way up into my 30'ies.

I remember blushed a lot and hated it.the blushing was out of my control so I had to avoid all contact with strangers.

I remember when I first started drinking at age 18 and how one night me and my sister were walking home from the pub and she said to me with a look of disgust"you're staggering"

I remember my first job and how I hated the tea breaks because we had to sit around a table chatting,I used to feel the sweat pouring down my sides in fear the conversation might turn to me.If somebody even looked at me I would blush.The fear got too much that i stopped sitting at the break table and instead pretended to read a book at my desk.

it didn't take long for me to find out that having a few drinks in public situations made me relaxed,able to converse,be funny,confident and so began my love of alcohol.

Nervousness and anxiety,are they the same,does anybody know?

I looked them up on the online dictionary and there's quite a bit of overlap. I used to blush all the time as well, which for a guy is particularly embarrassing. When I started taking antidepressants, I stopped blushing. I've heard they're good for social anxiety as well as depression, so I guess that's why. When I could finally look at the problem analytically, I realized it wasn't that big of a deal. I don't think less of someone if they blush, and on women I think it's kind of attractive.

Nervousness

1a. Of or relating to the nerves or nervous system: nervous tissue.
1b. Stemming from or affecting the nerves or nervous system: a nervous disorder.
2. Easily agitated or distressed; high-strung or jumpy.
3. Marked by or having a feeling of unease or apprehension: nervous moments before takeoff.

Anxiety

1a. A state of uneasiness and apprehension, as about future uncertainties.
1b. A cause of anxiety: For some people, air travel is a real anxiety.
2. Psychiatry A state of apprehension, uncertainty, and fear resulting from the anticipation of a realistic or fantasized threatening event or situation, often impairing physical and psychological functioning.