i am at this a little over 5 weeks. drank heavily for the last 12 years and did 3 out pt rehabs, loads of outpatient 1 on 1 counselling and aa meetings. had months of sobriety but certainly never felt serene.would wind up drinking "just one" which would turn into 10. wound up really feeling like a hopeless failure
heard about naltrexone about a year ago but didn't think much of it since no one in any of these multiple substance abuse counselling encounters ever mentioned it.
had to get the naltrexone from an overseas pharmacy since my doctors would not prescribe it.
5 weeks ago started it. first week i was very careful not to drink. then the next 3 weeks i went hog wild and learned it definitely does not keep you from going on a bender if you are hell bent on doing so!
THEN last week decided to see what would happen if all i wanted to do was drink a glass or 2 of wine with dinner (which normally would project me on a downward spiral to the bottom of a bottle)... Amazingly the first glass tasted nice but the cumpulsion to have another was gone. I even forced myself a few times to have one more or two more.
Tonight I went out to dinner with friends, again of course taking my pill one hour before. We all ordered drinks and for the very first time in my whole life i did not finish my glass and felt no desire to.
I am amazed.
more to follow
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