Reading through some of the posts on this forum it seems there are some very well informed participants so my hope is that I can get some help. Here is my situation:
I had a false start with NAL because it was initially prescribed by a misinformed practitioner. This person was of the NAL + Abs mindset and I thought NAL + Drink = no pleasure. From what I understand, we were both wrong because I got my hands on the Eskapa book and learned the correct protocol for TSM. Initially I was taking 50mg of NAL in the morning and could swear the first time I drank on NAL I experienced a revulsion and stopped after about 4-5 drinks (placebo effect perhaps?). But then after a day or so I was right back to my old get drunk, fall down, pass out routine (7-10 drinks). So I concluded that NAL did not work for me and quit taking it. Mind you, aside from a 2 day bender in February, and the last 3 weeks of experimenting with NAL, I have not had a drink since 12/7/13. I figured abstinence was the only route for me. Ah, but summer comes around and the BBQs and my resistance goes to hell. Long story short, I read the Eskapa book 2 days ago, went to my doctor yesterday and conveyed the correct protocol i.e. NAL + Drink = Cure and convince her to prescribe more NAL. I couldn't wait to start drinking yesterday just so I could begin my experiment and here I sit today anxious and depressed because I made a fool of myself with my wife and daughter and don't remember most of the evening. I know it takes time but, should I have experienced a black out session following the NAL 1 hour before protocol? I still get very high when I drink. Now I'm wondering if I need to ask for a higher dosage. Is it just too early to see a difference? It's a strange phenomena where I feel compelled to drink just so I can be successful with TSM when really, I just should not be drinking at all because I have no control. I am now in the midst of a bender. I know I'm on a bender when I reach the threshold of needing a drink in the early afternoon just so I don't have to feel the withdrawal effects. And it is a tormenting hell.
Any suggestions from the winners out there are much appreciated.
Day 1 on NAL - 1 pint of Yukon Jack and a couple of beers.

Please tell me it gets better!