yes, start measuring your drinks. I find when I drink wine I "double pour". might as well be honest with yourself!

Tamara,

Welcome. I am sorry to hear about your daughter. I am glad you are getting the help you need and how open you are. I couldn't imagine the pain you must be going through, and I understand turning to al. I really get being "stuck in concrete", for at times I am there (although I have no reason) and I blame it on my drinking and getting old (I am having a really hard time with that). I have to say I am to afraid to try to drink without the nal., but I can understand why it would be appealing. If you ever need anything I am always available, for I am a stay at home mom with adult children.

Wishing you a peace of mind

Jaba

Tamara, we are here for you. I am so sorry about the loss of your daughter in that tragic way. You are an angel to take care of her child. But it must be so very very difficult.

PLEASE if you do only ONE thing, take the nal one hour before you drink. That is essential for TSM to work. Without doing that it WILL NOT WORK.

We are here for you. You can PM me too if you need to talk or e mail privately. XOXO Newlife

Has anyone had to increase their dose of naltrexone? Past 2 days I went up to 75mgs. Yesterday it was better, didn't really care to drink, had 2. Today I just took the 75mgs, and waiting my 1 hour golden rule.

Tamara,

I am glad upping your dose is working for you. A few have tried it, but they said it didn't help. But it is great it is helping you!

Keep up the good work,

Jaba

I'm only 2 months in, after a honeymoon, and was really starting to freak out that nal would not work for me.

I did think this morning, at least it's been a year since she died. I'm glad it's not the day of it. Nothing will compare with the pain of that. So, it is a bit better.

This grief of losing a child to suicide is really something you never expect what emotions you have. All new and nothing in my past prepared me for it. A lot of sadness, guilt, disbelief, anger, feeling angry at her for leaving her 2 children, 8 & 18, Her not leaving them a note of how much she loved them. And I could go on and on. And most, I'll never have an answer.

Losing her made me question the existence of God, something I'd alway believed. How could he let this happen!? And lately the thought of, maybe he thought it was ok, for her to leave this earth. I don't know.

So much for my deep thoughts, lol. I'm really doing ok, considering the circumstances. I am getting help, but it will be a long road.

I'm so grateful for the sinclair method to help me with at least keeping me from being a self pitting non stop drunk. Because otherwise, I'd just be drunk non stop. With this I have an aid to help me through it all.

ThankIs if you listened to my rant.

Tamara,

I sent you a pm.

Jaba

Tamara - I too have PM'd you ---- please read it !

Hugs, Maggie x

I actually had an AF day yesterday, because I had such a bad hangover. I'm going to count it anyway. I"ll take any I can get.

Now today, I wasn't too sure if I wanted to drink, but the old habit was yelling a bit in my head, so I took my nal, and after an hour, I started drinking a beer. Thought I'd leave the vodka alone today.

I do like beer. I've noticed I'm enjoying the taste of it more now. Not gulping it down.

Anyway, I'm so glad we have this forum. So wonderful to have everyones support.

Hugs to all.

Tamara,

The af days will come, don't stress about them. At first I could only do a af day if I had a nal. over. But that nal. is working and having this forum is a godsend for I would lost without my buddies on here!