Thank you for your post Kekede. Yes, I think I appear pretty together to the outside world but am dealing w/ this drinking demon everyday. Have recently slipped backwards and just posted about that today under "progress". My husband knows I have this struggle---a couple too many black outs that tipped him off---but he tries not to talk about it w/ me as long as I seem to be holding it together. (Which is what I prefer since the topic is so depressing.) I laugh b/c the man just made a batch of wine---26 bottles---hello!!! You're living w/ an alcoholic; do you think this is helpful?! Fortunately I don't care for it and I'm not so far gone that I'll drink anything. LOL.

Anyway, thank you for introducing yourself and good luck w/ your battle too.