Hi Sailorbox...we've had people w/ similar situations as yours - coming off a time of sobriety, in order to finally get "cured" of the craving, and also a desire to feel like a "normal" person re: alcohol. One person of that description is Ellpee, who went thru a rehab and then was sober 9 months and then started TSM. Here is a link to his thread - I think he has been pretty successful in meeting his original goals, to be able to drink moderately.
viewtopic.php?f=9&t=2887&hilit=ellpeeThe other person that comes to mind is CuriousOne. You can do a search for that name and look for her thread in Weekly Progress. She gave up 3 years of sobriety and was very successful w/in a few months, now drinking "2 or 3 times a week, 2 - 3 drinks".
As for your willingness to give up 9 years of sobriety, I DO understand that. I was not sober when I started TSM, but I had had patches of sobriety (one of 5 years), but I always felt restless and resentful that I couldn't drink normally w/ my friends...I reasoned I had a bad habit. True that! For me, Nal knocks down the overwhelming effect of alcohol to a manageable level, such that I can now drink a few, enjoy them, and not worry that I won't be able to stop.
So...what you're asking is NOT an unreasonable question, but one that will garner different opinions from readers, from "no way!" to "go for it!" You know your own history and self better than anyone and know just how slippery the slope might be for you. But if you CAN give the extinction process of TSM a chance to work, the effect is pretty rewarding for most (making alcohol either manageable or completely uninteresting).
