Thanks for sharing your story Q. Q was one of the more interesting characters I liked on Star Trek. I also loved Piccard's voice. What I found hilarious about AA is no matter what anyone said they were in denial. Everybody was selfish or in denial. Even if they were like a pallitive care nurse who dedicated their life to others they were still selfish. It just didn't wash. People were always being painted with the same brush. I found it irritating. I also found it very out of date. So old fashioned. Anyway, I hope your find success. I have thus far. With the Sinclair method that is. The method works in a very subtle way for me and though some people find Naltrexone difficult to take, I have not and I started at 50mgs because that is what my doc asked me to take so I always did. I didn't start with the 25mgs recommended because I have a coated pill that is hard to break. Best wishes. Tater